YES!! finally cut my hair. it's so super thin now. stupid hair better dun grow so fast sia. if not every mth must go n cut den the hairdresser tink i some psycho or wat.


lim shih yann confirmed at the last min dat she was coming wif me. i met her when i juz finished tuition n when her tuition was gonna start in 1 & a 1/2 hrs.


BLEAH. was so damn sleepy today lor. could have had an afternoon nap if not for tuition. had to wake up so super early to make milo for me n claudia ang & on the heater.


usually mother ang does dis but she n father ang went to malaysia on thurs. SOBX. luckily tomorrow no sch!! can sleep in!! yipee yai yai!!



i tink i'm mad.



the band money for band shirt is finally gonna finish collecting. idiotic ppl better pay up if not i hang pig's head on ur door ah!!!!!!





i m becoming lamer each day. escape day is drawing near. n connie's father gonna fetch us!!!!!!!! wahaha. dis is good.

li zhen juz left my house. came over to use com. she said she love my com. wahaha.


survived the worst day of the week again. today seemed not so bad. i dunno y. it juz seemed shorter. maybe i'm FINALLY getting used to it.


bryan oei said he tinks steven wong is KING anonymous. but i STILL dun tink so. cos i dun tink steven wong's english is as bad as KING anonymous's (no offence, man)


YES. the day of escape, the ndp performance & watching charlie 7 the chocolate factory is getting nearer. my weeks r planned fully ahead.


29th jul-cut hair after tuition. yann not confirm if coming wif me.

31st jul-go escape. meet li zhen & joline at 11++. maybe connie's father gonna fetch us. have to meet yann earlier den.

4th aug-do acc project wif jaslin, gowri, james & eusebius. location: unknown.

8 aug-ndp performance. i can't wait for dis. FINALLY can play for a parade.

16 aug-watch charlie & the chocolate factory wif li zhen, mohaan & zul. yann not confirmed ( so wat else is new)


dere. now dat i wrote it all out it doesn't seem so much. maybe in between oso got some tings lah. like for eg, li zhen n me haven't confirm which day going out for shopping spree. n oso on 11 aug got the dunno wat NE ting. yuck lor. chatterji is gonna accompany our class. on dat day still go two periods of social studies. den have to see her after sch frm 2.30 to 5++ some more. see dat fish/bulldog mouth. haiz.


but nowadays she's not so bad lah. maybe her PMS period is finally over.



oh yeah. cooked maggi mee for tan. she said it was nice!!! yay.. i'm an expert in maggi mee.... such a BIG deal sia... anyway i realized dat dry maggi mee wif a bit of soup tastes nicer than maggi mee wif a lot of soup. besides, without the soup got lesser MSG oso.


tomorrow is finally fri. can cut hair!! yay.

Leave Right Now.Will Young

I'm here
Just like I said
Though its breaking every rule I've ever made
My racing heart
Is just the same
Why make it strong to break it once again?

And I'd love to say I do
Give everything to you
But I can never now be true
So I say

Chorus:
I think I'd better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I'd better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I'd better leave right now

I'm here
So please explain
Why you're openin' up a healing wound again
I'm a little more careful
Perhaps it shows
But if I lose the highs,
At least I'm spared the lows

Now I tremble in your arms
What could be the harm?
To feel my spirit calm
So I say

Repeat chorus

I wouldn't know how to say
How good it feels seeing you today
I see you've got your smile back
Now you say you're right on track
But you may never know why
Once bitten twice is shy
If I'm proud perhaps I should explain
I couldn't bear to lose you again

Repeat chorus

Yes I will

I think I'd better leave right now
I'm feelin' weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I'd better leave right now..

have to blog fast. claudia ang is coming back soon & she'll scream at me if she sees me using the com cos she told me she wanted to use it juz now.


anyway. today had english common test. SOBX. nvr concentrate, so wasted a lot of time.. dis sux. tomorrow got e maths test some more. on GRAPHS. have to study later...




hmm. oh yeah. today got band lor. so much for the '1 week break'. HMPF!!! liars. i dunno y ong like the twist & shout so much. concert play. den got encore play dat song again. not national day oso must play!! is not like ppl r twisting & shouting. BLEAH. at least dis time he added the reeds of distinctions. joline is estatic. she loves dat song cos her CLARINET got so much of melody.




den today got a tok on STDs some more. SO DISGUSTING!! esp the genital warts. so er xin can?!?! almost wanted to puke lor. yuck. all the LUMPS. *vomit* luckily now i cannot remember the pic if not i sure will go vomit one.


i realize dat i'm the only one among my classmates/frens/links who blog frequently. everytime go to other ppl's blog always the same ting one. peipei's blog is still on her regretting not going to the band concert. beatrice's blog is still abt me staring at her. sonika's blog... hm. actually i oso dunno.i can't be bothered to go to her blog cos she blogs like ONCE A MONTH or someting. geez. claudia ang's blog is still abt her shuttle run. maxine ang's blog is still abt her frens or wat. renfeng's blog is still abt going to escape.


speaking of escape, i'm going dis sunday!!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYYY. so fun. going wif connie, babita, joline, li zhen & yann.



n i still desperately wanna cut my hair. it's getting THICK n growing out like a MOP. ewwww. when it's wet it's still ok. but when it's dry it sux lor. can't stand it.



dis is a long post after all. claudia ang is STILL not back yet.

YES. decision day is over. n i am GLAD.


anyway. today kana molested by dat bloody beatrice in the toilet!!!! wah kao!!!! so violent sia.


SISTER paul was boring today. i was practically sleeping in class. n tomorrow got english common test. haiz.


den after sch went wif li zhen, babita, yann n joline to the amk mac tdo their acc hw. den the stupid mc ppl dun wanna answer their qns. so in the end went to bata.the bata ppl were nicer. saw shoes dere. so NICE!!! but mother ang says BATA=Buy And Throw Away. lame rite.


after dat tan & magar went home so me, lim & ng went to j8 to buy more studs!!1 yeah baby. i LOVE studs. today i bought black ball studs wif designs painted on dem. my stupid 3rd hole on my leftear is an idiot. did i explain dat all my holes r my "children"? my 1st holes r the biggest, n so on. the top "child" is pain oso, but nvm, used to it liaos. everytime like dat one lah. few days later den not pain liao.


lim finally decided dat she's gonna pierce her 2nd hole. YAY. i influence so many ppl... after i pierce den tan go n pierce.. den ng go n pierce.. now lim wanna pierce (but she scared of her lao bu).. n chew wanna pierce on top. SEE?? I M SUCH A GOOD INFLUENCE.



n i need a haircut. gonna cut on fri. see whether lim wanna come wif me or not.


i need 2 more piercings. i dun care.

today went to bishan park wif emmanuel & eduard. junior is SUCH a sissy lor. in the car he looked so scared n look like wanna vomit. den when reach the park he started to foam at the mouth. wah kaos. can be more man or not sia.


anyway. someting funny happened. emmanuel & eduard went to the playground den we sat at the benches lah surrounded wif muddy water wif water lilies. den dis CRACKER, he saw 2 dogs frm far den he wanted to chase after dem. den he stupid lah!! nvr see where he looking n he jumped into the pond aka muddy water. so dumb lor!! can see the splash some more. n he look so surprised n started paddling away. den claudia ang went to pull him out. at first i tot he purposely jump in cos hot lor. wah lau. n when he came out he was all wet n muddy.



wah lau. i was laughing & laughing away at his stupidness lor. n junior got bitten by ants n he started foaming at the mouth (again) n started running in circles like got mad dog disease or wat.


peipei got excited at the sight of grass & proceeded to eat it like a COW. n den even worse: she started to rub her face all over it. my dogs r mad. go park only become mad liao.




went to acacia to eat. eduard was whiny. i cannot stand whining lor. so irritating. haiz. emmanuel is so cuute!!!!!!!!



oh well. tomorrow is decision day. it all depends on him now.

Please Remember.Leanne Rimes

Time,
Sometimes the time just slips away
And you're left with yesterday
Left with the memories I,
I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time
I had you with me
Though we go our separate ways
I won't forget so don't forget
The memories we made

Please remember,
Please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember our time together
When time was yours and mine
And we were wild and free
Please remember,
Please remember me

Goodbye,
There's just no sadder word to say
And it's sad to walk away
With just the memories
Who's to know what might have been
We leave behind a life
And time we'll never know again

Please remember,
Please remember I was there for you
And you were there for me
And remember
Please remember me
Please remember,
Please remember I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember our time together
When time was yours and mine
And we were wild and free
Then remember,
Please remember me

And how we laughed
And how we smiled
And how this world was yours and mine
And how no dream was out of reach
I stood by you,
You stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ran so fast, we ran so free
I had you and you had me
Please remember

Please remember...

GOD I HATE HIM.



SOMEONE.


AFTER ALL I DID HE STILL DOESN'T NOE MY NAME. OR DAT I EXIST, FOR DAT MATTER.



DAT'S IT. MY DECISION ON MONDAY WILL BE A YES.


guys r so DAMN frustrating.how DENSE can dey get anyway?!!?!?




i m so bloody frustrated now. I HATE HIM.


the story begins.

YAY!!!
band concert today!!!


it was a BIGG success. omg. the whole room was overflowing lor. some ppl had to sit on the stairs. i didn't cock up on the classical canon anyway. wahahaha.


saw many many ppl frm the sch.. didn't noe the sch dis kind oso got ppl interested in band music.. first person i saw was ni weipu.. sit right in the centre some more..


I CANNOT BELIEVE DEY ASKED FOR AN ENCORE!!!! hee. manoshi aka kumar aka wu di didn't cock up on twist & shout either.


anyway.saw jean. dat melissa nvr come lor!!! bad bad bad senior. linda & yijun came. saw steven wong & anselm paul & tan teow leng. tan teow leng wore JEANS!!! tot he only got short, tight shorts. wahahaha.



anyway. i'm confused. abt someting. in a dilemma, actually. hais.


dun wanna blog liao. must slowly figure out the TING.

Bad Day.Something Corporate

It's been a bad day
Another bad day and all I want to do
Is look at you and know I'm okay

From where I'm sittin' these shoes ain't fitting
And I'm walking backwards, looking down
Don't see the sky I see the ground

Chorus:
Above, below, you look and so you wonder
Where the time has gone of looking up
Tomorrows on the way
Above, below, you look and so you say
When I wake up in the morning
Is it gonna be another ugly day?

She sits in church its 2 p.m.
And look who's back from work again
I guess they thought you're better off
Without this life, without a job

From where I'm sitting these shoes ain't fitting
And Im going nowhere, killing time
Just trying to feed my bleeding mind

Repeat chorus

It's been a bad day
Another bad day
And I cross my heart and hope to die
These dreams of yours are gonna fly

Repeat chorus

Another ugly day
Another ugly day

well. today juz proves it. God doesn't exist.



& I CAN NVR SHOW MY FACE ANYWHERE ANYMORE.


so bloody sia sway can!?!????!!?!?!!



STUPID steven wong. n his STUPID suggestions. he shall be added to the permanent list of ppl who piss me off dat's blu-tacked on my cupboard door.



wah lau!!! last min change say ALL speech participants must say lor!! NO drawing lots or watever. wah kao kanasai... so scary lor!!! everybody staring at ME on stage, the FOCAL POINT. the frst face i saw was wenglin's when i was backstage. when i came out den suddenly got ppl screaming n clapping away at the sec 3 side. tink it's beatrice dey all lor. den after dat i saw hasren's fierce, gonna-kill-me-wif-dat-look face. FREAKED me out ok. so i started mumbling away like a FUCKING BULLET TRAIN in the BLOODY MIC. ALL THE WHILE STARING AT THE PAPER. even writing zhou jie lun's name on top didn't calm me down. i was practically shaking lor.



dis experience reminded me of when i was in pri 5. but the pri 5 one even WORSE sia. i tink jean should noe lor. dat's the most embarrassing moment lor!! until now i STILL can't look back n laugh it off.



stupid racial harmony day. stupid steven wong. stupid interhouse. stupid *ahem ahem*




ARGHHHHHH. HOW CAN I SHOW MY FACE IN SCH TOMORROW?!!!!?!? I M IN A FRENZY.





even i didn't noe my voice could be dat low, as peipei said. i can't even remember wat happened on stage lor. all i can remember is me walking on stage n den the rest is a blank. crapp.


i got a consolation prize for dunno wat. i didn't even noe dey were giving out prizes lor. until i heard nadiah say my name. gahhh.


Y THE HELL M I IN PARAMOUNT?!?!!?!?




tomorrow i'll juz slunk off somewhere n hope dat no one sees me until everyting has worn off. but luckily i'm not as bad as the burghley guy. i was laughing away at him, despite the sia swayness i felt.




tomorrow is the band concert. i got a feeling i will sia sway myself more n mispitch for the stupid classical canon.

well. tomorrow is THE day. of doom.


firstly, it's cos it's a THURSDAY. the most dreaded day of the entire week.


secondly, it's RACIAL HARMONY DAY. like i said, have to go on stage n tok dunno wat crap in malay lah. PLS dun pick the ppl speaking malay. if God really exists, PLS dun let the judges pick the ppl speaking malay!!!!



anyway. was late for the 3rd time today. bloody hell. stupid prefect!! lim shih yann everytime late same time as me den dey record her as TWO times late lor!!! i'm hating prefects more & more. not individuals. the system. luckily i quit last time sia. if not... i tink i'll be suffocated to death by now by the tie n the responsibilties.


PLUS i got a really really deep paper cut. or should i say magazine cut?? juz got it. now it's itchy + pain +stinging. arghh.



hmms. friday is the concert!! calvin kept bugging me today to get tix for him & chenyang. last time dun wanna say. give the list liao den say. but tan siew eng gave the tix anyway.


OUCHHH. the stupid paper cut. i can't type properly. or wash my hair properly.



i shall not blog anymore. my finger is ROTTING.

i m soaked WET.

wah lan. in the morning walked in the rain. come back oso walk in the rain. it's a miracle i dun fall sick. i wanna COMPLAIN abt dis idiotic bus driver!!!!!!!!


in the morning i missed the usual bus got dat lim shih yann was LATE. so we waited for the next bus. when the next bus came den the STUPID driver juz picked up the ppl at the door, n although he saw like another 7 ppl coming, he promptly CLOSED THE DOOR & SPED OFF. the 2nd time already lor!! hidayat ran after the bus n anyway, the ppl on dat bus was late oso. later he told me he scolded the driver. dis is not the 1st time dis driver did dis already lor. n the driver said cos he was off schedule. BLOODY HELL. he off schedule my problem ah. bullshit sia. who ask him come late. last time i curse him still not enough. now 2nd time must curse him again. n maybe write a complain letter, signed, 'enraged student'.


asshole.



it's official. i'm gonna do the ting for the stupid racial harmony day.



arghhh. tok MALAY leh. can u believe it!?!?!? all i can pray for is dat dey wun pick the person toking malay. all bryan oei's idea. HMPF. for PARAMOUNT. blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.




oh yeahh. today got fight in our class after recess. i juz came in den saw one whole group of boys liao. some guys frm normal acad came to beat jarratt up. too bad vishal was dere, so he kana beaten oso. wahaha...dunno for wat sia. elaine john brought all of dem to the office. dis is called nothing better to do. not elaine john lah!! the boys.



dunno which idiotic dog urinated on my zhou jie lun initial d poster!!!!!! it dropped frm the wall n dat dog went to urine on it. it is RUINED!!!!!!!


i knew today wun be a good day. woke up wif a red left eye. n i closed the hole at the side dere. cos whole day infection. 3rd time already lor!! i now oos not stressed. next time stressed den find somewhere else to pierce. the more stressed i m, den must pick a spot dat is painer when pierced. wahaha. i m so SADISTIC.



but was late again today!! yesss!!! next time late den must stand dere for 1 whole hr. must find some day dat i hate. maybe next thursday!! cos got pe. provided daniel wee come back. i hate choo dunnowat'shisname.


suxx. got tuition. if not i could be in band now.

Another Heartache.Pug Jelly

I can't make sense in what i've done
She starts to cry, she starts to run.
When things aren't bad enough to change,
Then things will stay the same

Why can't you see that,
No matter what you do
Some things won't change?
Why can't you see that,
You screwed up once or twice
And put me through this pain.
Why can't you see that,
I'm trying hard for things to stay the same.

You told the truth,
So things will stay the same
I'm thinking about you.

I look at you and,
feel my heart bursting through my chest.
Another heartache
What teenage years are all about
But this has been a test.
So please believe me,
I hope that things will work out for the best.

You told the truth,
So things will stay the same
I'm thinking about you
And time goes by so slowly,
When you're away, i'm thinking about you

I hope you had your fun
At the end of the day,
The one who really cares
Is waiting for you to say
"And i know, it's ok"
But i can't make sense of what you said today.

You told the truth,
So things will stay the same
I'm thinking about you
Time goes by slow when you're not there
Time goes by slow when you're not there

today is a monday. had to bring the stupid band uniform again. bring n wear i oso dunno for wat sia!! oso nvr do anyting special. kaox!!


yes!!!! i finally have a clue to KING anonymous!!! KING anonymous is 98% a guy!! wheeees. see my tagboard den noe liao. peipei say she tink she noe who KING anonymous is. better ask her tomorrow.




anyway. back to today. had health screening. the nurse was nice.



i'm getting worried abt xavier. he seems suicidal. he's my FREN ok. on account dat he always gives me sweets.


si on is seriously getting on my nerves. esp when he conducts lor. so act big can?!?! besides, he has no right to pump ppl when ong is conducting. he tink he wat, drum major ah?!!? kanina... i dun care whether he's my liu di or my 'jiu jiu' as in tong xin yuan lor. bloody hell.


speaking of pumping, i FINALLY can pump ppl. last time actually got chance to pump chee boon but he whole day run away n dun let me pump!!!!! therefore i have come up wif a new rule. last 10 ppl who dun pay for the band shirt $$ will pump 15!!!! so smart rite??? yeah lah.. very little lah... who ask me so kind hearted. :p



today had fun at recess oso. i was busy trying to stuff my straw wrapper down yann's shirt!!! yeah yeah, childish lah... but it's fun ok!!! it's ALWAYS fun to bully limo shiho yanno!! not fun to bully li zhen. she always beat back very pain one leh. den connie oso cannot cos she very easily get angry one. den i tried on joline; she looked pissed. cos i accidentally scratched her wif my carefully filed square nails. babita oso cannot cos not dat close to her. so only left yann lor!! wahahahaha... she held onto the warpper n in the end she got no chance to stuff it down my shirt so she threw it at me. WAH LAU!! GOT WAT PI YONG SIA?!!?!?!? n tan said she prefer the sad araxes than the mad araxes. she dun regret, dat's all i can say.


oso told nicholas the news. he looked so sad lor!!!! sobx. can't stand to see ppl looking sad. esp guys lor!!! anyway he said nvm. n dat he wasn't gonna cry or commit suicide. to put it in his words, "cry for wat? i oso not sad." ARGHH WATEVA.


dat's 2 ppl i have to watch out for. who have the potential to be suicidal. esp nicholas lor!!! if he does (touch wood!!) den i'll feel guilty my whole life cos i was the one who told him.




i seriously tink i'm gonna fail the bloody information report test.

i'm so damn bored.




i haven't bought the stupid bandana for the stupid concert. i nedd 2. cos short hair girls need 2. wat is dis, hairism????




BLAH!!!


haiz.


still trying to figure out who KING anonymous is. dat person hasn't tagged back. KING anonymous, whoever u r, PLS juz say who u r. or juz say if u're a guy or girl. or any clue. anyting!!! but wait. if it's a KING means is a guy rite. but if is a girl maybe she put KING to confuse me so i will tink it's a guy.



i tink i'm confusing myself more.





anyway. the problem between those 2 ppl n me has been resolved. i oso dunno y i got such a big reaction. i tot i said i was in self-denial?? den y still got such a big reaction??


MUST be self-denial. it HAS to be.


dere's no other reason.



GAHH. i m seriously gonna regain dat bloody 5 kg. i dun wanna regain 5 kg!!! i wanna LOSE another 5 kg!!! best is if i go anorexic. wahahahah. can't imagine!!



my forehead is popping out in pimples again. haizz. bloody hell.



oh yeahh. celebrated my cousin chrishirl's 36th bdae yesterday at keppel club. emmanuel & eduard r so cute!!!! can't wait to see dem when dey become teenagers. emmanuel sure very shuai one. he so fast now in pri 1 liao. soon he'll be in sec 3!!! & i'll be 23!!! whoa. sound so old.


anyway. after dinner went to the arcade. i beat claudia ang in puzzle bobble!! den car racing my stupid car got someting wrong. n dat claudia ang beat me. den later we exchanged cars n she oso got the same problem. dis shows the MACHINE has a problem ok!! not dat my car driving skills r lousy. I CAN DRIVE A CAR NEXT TIME OK!!!! I CAN RIDE A BICYCLE BETTER!!!!!!!



wanted to play shooting but no more coins left. spent over $20 liao. so went to the playground. saw a very very cute guy lor!!! but he's like 20++. looks like nick shen!!!! aww.


at dis time i was STILL trying to figure out who KING anonymous is. (note to KING anonymous: see how vexed i m???) n shih yann was complaining to me cos she was oso celebrating her cousin's bdae at a chalet. she say got shuai ge but got stead liao. den those no stead one all like gay. i have come up wif a theory:

• good looking guys r not good guys.
• good guys r not good looking guys.
• good looking & good guys r extinct.
• not good looking n bad guys r everywhere.

it makes sense rite. thank u, thank u.. dis shall be known as the Araxes theory. i m famous!!!!

i m delirious.

finally changed my tag board. dun need to press refresh anymore!! haha..

so bloated today!!!! ate so much!!


first of all, my day started at 8.05 am at band. actually can be early one lor!! bloody hell.. den forgot the stupid bandana which made me rush back n take it den in the end nvr use. den took cab wif yann. she still owes me $2.50 for the fare!!!!!!!!! den after dat when falling in i realized dat i forgot to bring my gold horn collar pin!!! but luckily nvr use. *phew*



tan siew eng bought buns for us.i was starving cos early in the morning had to run frm the hall to the band room cos we were practicing in the hall today. saw azhar n his fren on the way. so early come to sch for wat i oso dunno. if is me i would be snoring away like a pig at home liao.



den ran through the whole overture of songs. ong got fed up wif the percussionists (so wat else is new??) cos chee boon whole day absent den cannot catch up n manosh aka kumar aka wu di easily distracted. n ong still say horn play rubbish sia!!!! for the pirates of the carribbean (sp???) song.


after band went to the serangoon gardens mc n ate. put on so many calories!!!! den came home n mother cooked dunno wat dim sum. the forzen kind lah.


i'm STILL trying to figure out who's the anonymous person dat tagged in my tagboard. it's obviously not bryan oei. the typing style is different. have to find out who writes dun as don & keep as kip. hmm.


wah lauu. mystery sia.

Reality (translation: zhen shi)
Zhang Hui Mei aka A*Mei

The words you said
Have grown roots in my heart.
The love is too deep
That's why there's hurt.
Memories
Are churning around in my heart.
Is every person
As stupid as me?

Scared that if I continue probing
Will only hurt both parties more
I can feel another person's presence
I wait
Waiting for the smile to turn to tears
When love is at it's worst
Is more truthful.

Pre-chorus:
Too many suspicions
So what if I know the answer?
So tolerance doesn't need any talent
Only if you love the wrong person.

Chorus:
Heartache is more realistic than happiness
Why is love so sarcastic?
I forgot how many times
I saw you and just couldn't hold on
Loneliness is more realistic than hugs
Love makes a person lose sense
Could it be that I'm too selfish
To reject lonely days?
Can't let go
And can't see the future
Could these imperfections
Be the reality of love?

today was the most humiliating day of my entire.


n today proves nvr EVER trust anyone u tink u can't trust. in fact, nvr trust anyone u tink u can trust. actually, juz DUN trust anyone. n DUN tell anyone anyting u dun wan anyone else to noe.


i tot i was regaining trust in ppl again. but today oso showed me dat no one can be trusted.



once i tot dat saying watever u wan was considered as funny n bubbly. but i guess i'm wrong. saying watever u wan without tinking is juz a big mouth. dat cannot be trusted.



i was right at some previous post. dat 2 ppl found out abt a secret n i dunno if i can trust dem. oh well. dey juz showed me dey can't. even if dey didn't mean it.




was pissed off n mad. n a mixture of embarrassment.



but my frens made it better. wat r frens for?



cancelled my tuition n went to j8 to buy the bandana. i dun tink i had the mood to go tuition anyway. as usual, 4 of us went plus delon, mingyang, pei en & her fren. delon was pissed at pei en n i was pissed at those 2 ppl. but anyway.



was so sia sway at j8 lor. dat delon n mingyang so damn childish can?!!? tan & lim dunno how to teach their juniors one. haiz..


me n joline went to eat at kfc while yann & zhen went to buy the bandanas wif their juniors. n dey came back wif some headband frm seiyu. omg. den had to go back n change. but cannot refund money so had to exchange it wif someting else. so i bought 2 pairs of shoes cos got nothing else to buy liao. n got sale some more: 2 for $19.90. wahaha. tomorrow have to return dem money liaos.



den bought the REAL bandanas at ice lemon tee. the toot salesgirl didn't noe we bought 4 bandanas n she charged us for 3!!! hahax. den went to watts in n bought studs. i still felt a bit gloomy so i bought all black studs. anyway i'm sick of colourful studs liao.


haiz. someone kill me.



i wanna translate zhen shi by zhang hui mei. i tink dat song speaks the truth. DAT'S y it's called zhen shi.

the worst day of the entire week is OVER. *whew*


shit sia. tot of many tings to blog budden when come here den forgot liaos. so idiotic.


BLAHXXX. tomorrow gotta go n buy bandana!! at j8. for the stupid concert.. have to cancel my tuition.. yesssss!!!!!!!!!!!! n den at the same time can by more 6 for $5 studs at watts in. yeah, baby..



pe was so boring can. I FAILED THE BLOODY STANDING BROAD JUMP AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!! goddammit... 145 lor!! bloody hell... my legs r getting shorter n shorter each yr. arghhhhhhh. but gowri was no better lor. 120 only!! wahahaha.. sonika same as moi......... she's a BALLERINA, for goodness sake. her legs should be longer n more flexible than my stumpy, lumpy, fatty legs!!!!! wahahahahahaha...



n band was ok. bernard & uthayam didn't come. so me n nazruddin had to play for 4 horns!!! i almost blew out my lungs... even i didn't noe i can play dat loud lor.. but i left in a damn bad mood.



I HATE TAN SIEW ENG.



wat the hell. actually the stupid amazing grace dun need to play one lor!! den she PURPOSELY wan. say very nice, very nice. very nice my ASS ah!! sound like a bloody funeral song lor!! i rather play the ob-la-di, ob-la-do a THOUSAND times than dat stupid, bloody, idiotic song lor. so no taste one!!!n so bcos of her ong keep making us play n play dat stupid song. amazing grace SUX lor.



wat made it worse is dat stupid ong go n change the pause to a super super high note for the horn lor!!!!!!! it's like out of the range already lor!!!!! if i kana heart attack my ghost will come n haunt him n dat stupid tan siew eng lor. n bao meng to parents ang n ask dem to sue tan, ong n the stupid sch.


i m fa xie-ing now. at times like dis it is not good to disturb me.



DAMN U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




bloody hell. wat is UP wif teachers anyway?!?!!?!? ESP band teachers lor. do dey not have any sense of taste?!?!



gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.








i feel like smashing someting. maybe tan siew eng's HEAD.




grrrrr.






the only good ting i can tink of is tomorrow is a friday, my favourite day of the week.



NO maths.




the bad ting is, on sat have band n den ong say he will go through bloody amazing grace AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






BAHAMSHIT U!!!!!!!!!!






if dis keeps up tomorrow i will have burst a blood vessel.






have to tink of an excuse to get out of band on sat. maybe postpone my tuition to sat. waHA. HA. HA.

today almost lost my voice. was screaming away in english n pccg. :D

speaking of english, i gave anselm paul a new name!!!! he is now known as SISTER paul, as in a NUN. wahahahaha. so funny. he put me in the same group as azhari, sathya, azri n khairul lor!!! n dat idiotic azri keep saying i like AZHARI. oh, PLEASE. gowri was so pissed wif sathya. nvr saw her so angry before. even after english oso her face so black (not literally!!)


anyway, during pccg me n sonika were damn childish man... kept chasing each other around n trying to put yvonne's tissue down each other's shirts. n my 2nd 1st kiss was taken away!! by beatrice!!!!! on the cheek, DUH. i tink we'll freak out if we kissed each other on the LIPS. n vishal & nadiah were laughing away. nadiah was freaked out. LESBIANISM. yupps.



after sch went to the esplanade wif the whole band. to watch the WASBE, a top band frm switzerland. got other schs go oso. young quek got the FREE tix for us sia!! unfortunately i didn't see a SINGLE shuai ge lor. hais. the esplanade's seats r so shuang lor. felt like sleeping. i slept a while wif my eyes open den woke up. after dat my eyelids kept closing.



anyway it was not a wasted trip cos saw a shuai ge on 315 frm peicai. he was not IN the bus, he was at the traffic light, waiting to cross the road. babelicious!!!



i give up. i'm not gonna call my cute, sensitive guy the cute sensitive guy anymore. dat stupid lim influence me to call him the sissy guy. he's the one i blogged abt yesterday, abt being my next target for didi.



azhar shocked me today. he is actually gonna watch the band concert!! tot he dis kind wun go n watch one lor. must be go dere n see some one.



so far i have donated to 2 ncc donations tingys. dat james is bugging me when he didn't even bring his card. i seriously dunno wat's dat ting abt. calvin showed me the ppr. dunno wat the support dem to go mt ophir or wat lah. dey go mt ophir their business lah. donate wat sia. but nvm. i m such a KIND person. see dem small lah...



goody. can pump ppl tomorrow. yay.

So Yesterday.Hilary Duff

You can change your life
You can change your clothes
If you change your mind,
Well that's the way it goes.

But I am gonna keep your jeans
And your old black hat
They look good on me
You're never gonna get them back.

Pre-chorus:
At least now today,
Not today,
Not today,
Cos

Chorus:
If it's over,
Let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterday
So yesterday
I'm just a bird that's already flown away.
Laugh it off and let it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterday,
So yesterday.
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay?

You can say you're bored.
You can act real tough.
You can say you're torn,
But I've heard enough.

Thank you
You made my mind up for me
When you started to ignore me.
If you see a single tear
It isn't gonna happen here.

Repeat pre-chorus
Repeat chorus

Bridge:
If you're over me
I'm already over you.
If it's all been done
What is left to do?
How can you hang up if the line is dead?
If you wanna walk I'm a step ahead.
If you're movin' on
I'm already gone
If the light is off
Then it isn't on.

Repeat pre-chorus
Repeat chorus 2x

didn't come online yesterday. i missed the com!!! sad to say after 1 day of absence frm the cyberworld dere r no interesting bulletins to post on friendster.


anyway. toked to beatrice n sonika today. dey found out who i likED. surpirse, surprise. anyway i dun trust ppl so i dunno whether dey can keep it a secret or not. BEATRICE, especially!! after toking to dem i realized dat i dun really like him dat much after all. i told jaslin i didn;'t noe if i dun wan to let go bcos i really like him, or bcos i didn't wan to bcos it would be a pity. cos he's the longest guy i've ever liked n it would be a pity to give up juz like dat. so obviously, the 2nd reason is juz self-denial. unfortunately, i tink the 2nd reason is the real reason.



anyway lim shih yann noes i've got my eye on another guy. ;) but too bad dis guy is either: a) shorter than me, b) same height as me, or c) 1 cm taller than me.



in other words, he does not fit the height requirement minimum of 164 cm. therefore he's my next target to be my didi. weiting will no longer be the youngest!! hahax.


which reminds me. i have to have a talk wif ong jian guo. the suspense is driving me nuts.



now i shall sum up wat ppl tink my race is at first glance frm the most to the least:

eurasian: abt ALMOST all the ppl i've met.
malay: ditto.
filipino: 3
indian: 1
chinese: 1


must i carry a sign around my neck saying i m PURE chinese?? for goodness sake.

Typical. The Moffatts.

Open your eyes
Hear all the voices inside my head
It's no surprise
Filtering through all the things you said

I can't believe that you're here again
You keep pretending there's no end

If I'm such a loser
Than why do you hang around me?
You're always trying to change me
You always say 'if only'
If I keep listening to all the things you said
You're so miserable
You're so typical

Taking your cue
From a magazine that talks to you
The feeling you had
Without an original point of view
Oh look here she comes again
Runaway train comin' round the bend

If I'm such a loser
Then why do you hang around me?
You're always trying to change me
You always say 'if only'
If I keep listening to all the things you said
You're so miserable
And I'm invisible
This love's predictable
You're so typical

Bridge:
It's always the same
You can't find sunshine in pouring rain
Day by day
Finding someone else to blame

I can't believe that you're here again
You keep pretending there's no end
If I'm such a loser
Then why do you hang around me?
You're always trying to change me
You always say 'if only'
If I keep listening to all the things you said
Then I'd be you instead

If I'm such a loser
Then why do you hang around me?
You're always trying to change me
You always say 'if only'
If I keep listening to all the things you said

You're so miserable
And I'm invisible
Love's predictable
Inconceivable
Unbelievable
Undeniable
Uncontrollable

You're so typical

today kana forced to go church again. :s


father ang tinks i dunno wat he's doing but i DO. he wans us to go church wif him on a weekly basis untul we can accept CHRIST n den finally we r CHRISTIANS.

for CHRIST'S sake. after mass claudia ang said i was very anti-CHRIST. i am, anyway. i always have been since i was in pri 5, when i decided the sermons were not only boring but sounded arrogant. besides, i dun like the priest in dat church.


anyway. it's not only christianism dat i can't accept. i tink i'm gonna stay religion-free until i get married n den follow my husband's religion. if he's a freethinker den all the better. dun need all the hassle. :x dun kill me now.



after the mass went to the place where maxine ang is working. in substation. father ang was damn pissed cos dey took too long to get the bill.


den went to eat porridge. mother ang was damn pissed then cos me n her wanted to go toilet but the toilet is the kind where got a barrier den must put in 10 cents den can turn the barrier to go in. but she had no change, so she went to the nearest stall, which is a sugarcane (sonikaaaaa!!!!!!) juice stall n asked the owner whether can change. den the owner dere complaining n complaining dat everyday got so many ppl wanna change money wif him n den after saying all dat he dun wanna change wif her. so mother ang went to another stall to change. n she had a VERY irritated look on her face.



father ang is obsessed wif gays. cos he read in the new paper today dat nowadays got a lot of gays in singapore n some have aids. den every guy he see oso say look like gay. -_-" hahahaha...


today i have a good hair day. yups. was admiring my hair n face shape in the car's rearview mirror. call me zi lian, i dun mind.



nowadays got more n more ppl asking me whether i put make-up or not. NO, i dun. at most only put concealer to sch lor. i rushing in the morning still got time to put make-up ah. dun even have time to put conditioner in my hair lor.



bleahx. tomorrow got sch again. haiz.



the band concert is coming soon!!!!!! ppl must come n support!!! wheees.



i shall post another moffatts's songs. juz to spite mr anonymous. :p

Who Do You Love?.The Moffatts [girl's version]

Here we are
You tell me I'm the only one
Who makes you feel love again

There you go
I see you watching her
When you don't think I know
Should I let you go?

So who's it gonna be?
Is it her or me?

Chorus:
Who do you love?
Who do you need?
You're messing up my mind
Wastin' all my time
Who do you love?
What do you feel?
Stop playin with my heart
You're tearin me apart
Am I the one
Who can make you fly up above?
Is it me who can take you higher
Than you're dreaming of?
Now who do you love?

Who do you love?

Turn around
Do you really think
You'll play me like a fool
For you
Then I realize
When you touch me it's like nothing I have known
Could I let you go?

So who's it gonna be?
Is it her or me?

Repeat chorus 2x

yeap. i'm back frm band!!!


not feeling dat depressed anymore. dun have braces den dun have lor, wat's the big deal.. anyway next time grow old already all the teeth will drop out wat..


today ong drag the practice until 2 lor!!! when it's like supposed to end at 1. we got the new band shirts. dat's FAST, man!! i only gave zul the money for the syf photos dis morning leh!! den now have to start a new round of collection. luckily next yr dun need to do dis liao. wonder who's the unlucky treasurer next..



the good news is dat i can wear size M!!! 5 kg is quite a lot. i tot 5 kg is no big deal oso. wahaha... n the new shirt dun have the disgusting puddle of water!!! wahahahaha... cos the puddle of water is too ex liao.. now the shirt is $8.50.. therefore the new shirt is DEFINITELY nicer than dis disgusting orange shirt. the material used is better some more.



after band went to j8 wif yann, joline & shu ling to eat. at first wanted to eat mac, but den change to kfc. den go dere stupid kfc AND mac so damn crowded so we went to long john instead. i m so damn full. after eating went to buy ear studs (again). yes, it is the 6 for $5 one..


the infection of my ear hole at the side is gone!!! yay.. i specially bought a ear stud for it..



n i fell in love wif 'who do u love?' by the moffatts. it juz popped into my head. sometimes old songs will juz pop into my head like dat one lor. den i was singing it n den claudia ang heard n went to dl so many moffatts songs lor!!! ahh... i have such a great influence on ppl.. wahaha..


obviously i m gonna post it, which u will see on top..




i love to buy studs to decorate my ear. for my bdae everybody buy me studs i oso dun mind lor!! but den maxine ang will go n borrow it n NEVER give it back. :(


i feel like watching initial d again.



u noe wat? i love my teeth after all.

dis is such a bad time to blog. but i can't help it.



i feel like crying. i'm on the verge of crying.


mother ang juz told me dat the nurse of the national dental centre or dunno wat juz called her. n told her my turn for braces has come.



i DO wan braces.


but i oso wan to perform for the band concert. n for the sch's ndp.


pls, no.



my nsoe is getting stuffy. dere's a big lump in my throat. two tears slide down my face. i can't have the best of 2 worlds.



i wan braces so bad. but i oso wan to perform. i'm not not going to perform, not after all dat hard work through those mths. y couldn't the nurse call me like next yr???


i wonder how jean did it. jean, my ex senior. but i remember her always complaining dat her mouth hurt. her teeth hurt.



now i'll have to queue up again for the next turn, after 4 yrs of waiting. i really shouldn't have joined band. maybe i should've juz stayed in library. maybe not.



oh no. depression is coming again. after i fought so hard to get it off last yr.



i wan braces. i need braces.


i wan to perform. i need to perform.



sometimes it's hard to differentiate between a need & a want.

Smitten (translation: chi xin jue dui) [girl's version]
Sam Li Sheng Jie

Wish to make you drunk with a cup of latte
So that you can love me a little
The feeling of secretly admiring someone
You won't understand
You who someone has been with will never understand

Seeing you and her together in front of me
Proves that my love is just stupid
You don't understand my frailness
The experience you will never go through

Chorus:
The hurt I've had for you you will never understand
So why am I forcing myself to fall in love
With everything abt you?
You cruelly avoid my advances
I silently close the door to count my tears
Knowing that hoping you to leave her world is impossible
I still foolishly wait for the day for a miracle to happen
Until that day
You will realize
The one that really loves you
Is taking the pain alone.

Before I thought I would regret
Didn't want to love too much to be smitten
The first tear I cried for you
The changes I made for you
Won't change your determination against me.

Repeat chorus

Until that day you will realize
The one that really loves you
Is taking the pain alone.

i dun care. i'm gonna translate chi xin jue dui to english. i tried it yesterday n i couldn't tink wat the stupid title meant in english. i was tinking abt it all day n at the same time translated diff parts of the song.


anyway, i'll be changing my place. :'( but it'll still be at the window!!! yay... i'll be sitting at zafirah's place.. woohoo...



lalala... finally it's friday.. n finally i've finished collecting ALL the money. tomorrow got band n den can give zul the money so i can get rid of it. dey really really should gimme an asst so i can make him/her carry all the money. but den if i got an asst den later he/she lose the money den i die liao.



dat stupid xavier STILL keeps toking abt the bet. every single day he's buzzing at my ear. let's see.. i have chem, bio n english wif him.. OMG. dat's like, so many times n day n so many days a week!!! DAMN. i knew i should've taken physics. bleah. but nvm. bio is better.


today during english me, gowri, beatrice n jaslin were laughing away. actually, me, gowri n beatrice were laughing at each other and jaslin. cos jaslin chew laugh until her whole face so red. dat gowri ah!!! haiyoh. terrible sia.




i m starting to get back into the sch mood. it usually takes me abt a week to a mth to get back into the sch mood. next week got acc test. sure get very low. till dunno the stupid format for the dunno wat updating cashbk n bank reconciliation statement.


speaking of acc, james said dat for the project he wanted to go MY parents' company n do the intervier leh!!! siao!! so damn far lor. at EVERTON PARK leh. dat is around where, tanjong katong ah. tanjong SOMETING.



i wanna go translate the song lah. need tome n energy n brain cells one ok.

Oops I Did It Again Britney Spears

I think I did it again
I made you believe we're more than just friends
Oh baby
It might seem like a crush
But it doesn't mean that I'm serious

Pre-chorus:
'Cause to lose all my senses
That is just so typically me
Oh baby, baby

Chorus:
Oops I did it again
I played with your heart
And got lost in the game
Oops you think i'm in love,
That i'm sent from above
I'm not that innocent

You see my problem is this
I'm dreaming away
Wishing that heroes
They truly exist

I cry,
Watching the days
Can't you see I'm a fool
In so many ways

Repeat pre-chorus
Repeat chorus

Oops I did it again to your heart
Got lost in this game
Oops you
Think that I'm sent from above
I'm not that innocent

Repeat chorus 2x

FINALLY. the worst day of the week is finally O-V-E-R.


so many tings to do, so little time. i'm down to 2 ppl to collect money frm. wee ying & jing hong. dat wee ying!! tell her so many times liao still say no money. my problem meh. anyway zul told me to cancel their order if dey haven't for it by tomorrow. WAH LAU. dis yr so damn busy for the poor little treasurer. after dis i tink still must collect for the band shirt. which is so damn ex lor. ppl say is $19. kaoz. the orange one is like i dunno how many times cheaper lor.


but the new one is still quite nice lor. if not for the stupid PUDDLE OF WATER, which ong insists on having. it sux lor!!! the shirt is maroon den suddenly put one big patch of blue ting at the back some more. wah lau. last time still ask us whether wan the puddle of water or not. almost the whole band say dun wan liao den dey STILL put. if dey wanna put den still ask for our opinion for wat.


after tomorrow i can relax before the next bigger collection of money.



chatterji sux sia. i can't stand her. frm a fish mouth she has upgraded to a bulldog mouth. cos when she scold ppl den later will pout her mouth like the silver fish caught in the net in finding nemo. den today she scold shaiful n her mouth pouted more, so look like a bulldog. me n yann were complaining abt her in the bus dis morning lor. yann say chatterji whole day act so in, as in cool. like as if she noe everyting we're doing. she make the stupid blog oso nvr update one. n everyone flood her stupid tag board wif idiotic msgs. the worst of all is she mistake me for stacy lor!!!!!!!! WAT THE FUCK?!?!?!?!?!?!



for goodness sake. we're supposed to have four periods of geog dis semester not four periods of boring stupid social studies. at least elaine john is better. anyone would prefer elaine john more than stupid chatterji.



n today at bio dat xavier keep toking n toking abt our bet. n he keep saying he'll get higher than me for the writing competition. dat's wat our bet is abt, btw. n keep saying i'll get COP some more. wat can i say? empty vessels make the most noise.


bleah. tomorrow is friday. usually i love fridays cos sch end early but i got tuition at 3 lor. so cannot go out n come back late late. must change my tuition time sia. not in the afternoon.



today i learnt dat looks can be deceiving. nicholas told me someting today. i was shocked to find out abt it. no, it's not abt nicholas. tsk tsk. i'm not shocked now. juz.... um... i dunno, surprised i guess.



now saturday oso got band. haiz. n dere r band posters all over the sch shouting out abt our concert. which reminds me. i haven't ask parents ang abt the concert ting.





i can't wait for the concert to be over. den can start practising for the sch's ndp!!!!!!! wheee.i love playing for parades more than concert lor.




the sec 3s of band r up to someting, which will happen someday.

saw a VERY super cute kitten on my way to sch wif yann. i meowed at it n it looked at me at a VERY super cute way. like puss in boots in shrek 2. den it started digging at the soil like wanna show off. i so wanted to bring it home lor!!!!!!!!! take it first den hide in my bag den when sch over den bring home. SO CUUTE!!!!!!!!! i was gushing over it wif yann, joline, peipei, jaslin ++ others but can't remember who liao.


i'm still tinking of it. it is black & white like my peipei (the dog, PLS) n it's so small it can fit like the size of my hand. awwwwwwwww.



anyway. acc got project lor!!! juz when we finish the stupid cme project. which is so damn hard to figure out. the stupid powerpoint was too damn big. but luckily the acc project like not dat hard. my group consists of me, jaslin, gowri, james & eusebius.


james again. sec 1 ipw & the chinese project i oso do wif him lor. speaking of which, beatrice said dat she couldn't stand the sight of his face n feel like smacking his face!!!!!!!!! *gasp* violent sia. my ex kor some more!!!!!!!


today was a gret improvement. dina finally gave me the money on tues. now left linda, yiting, ying zi, wee ying & jonathan. but jonathan not so bad. he paid me $10 today. den tomorrow gimme another $4.


dat linda n yiting ah!! now i'm damn pissed wif dem. tell dem so many times liao STILL forget to bring. tink i treasurer den can bully me ah. i not as lenient as yiting lor. she herself ex treasurer still take so long to gimme money one. now every recess i feel like a loan shark sia. zul is oso not as lenient as ravi lor. must be EFFICIENT lor. whole day drag drag drag... hais.


eeeeeeeeee. tomorrow is thursday again. i HATE thursdays lor. so long n draggy. all the subjects i dun like some more. TWO periods of social studies. TWO periods of pe. TWO periods of a maths. THREE periods of e maths. OMGGG. can die sia. shit!!! social studies hw must pass up tomorrow!! haven't even do!! idiotic shit.



wah lauu!!!!! dat bryan oei as renfeng & vishal to change the seating arrangement lor!!!! i was in such a damn bad mood ok. i was sulking away while we walked frm the classroom to assembly n halfway through assembly oso. i was sulking so much dat i didn't even noe i was sitting next to babita & li zhen, until dey toked to me. :(


but den my mood changed cos the stupid performance was so sian n me, li zhen n joline were laughing abt the tong xin yuan.


li zhen is da di. joline is da shan. i'm da qiu. babita is da hai. shih yann is da yang (bai chi). connie is da jiang.


n we found a jiu jiu!!! si on, oso known as my liu di, is the jiu jiu!! wahaha. den the shi tou is taufik. nowadays si on love to mess up ppl's hair sia. mad one.


den last min found out got band today. today got oral so dunno whether got band or not. but in the end have. so went. go oso nvr even do anyting. juz anyhow play in the store room only. den dismiss early at 5 some more.




sian lor. today english oso very sian. three periods sia. i would've fallen asleep if not for gowri who was so damn horny. she kept cracking like damn pervertic jokes lor. :s



n bernard suddenly tell me today he love me. SIAO. obviously not true lah!!!! for goodness sake. must be send to wrong person sia. halfway smsing him den say, 'i love u. :)'



WATEVA!!!! i really dun give a damn ok. must be wanted to send to hua zhen den send to me. oh well. who ask my name start wif a. den always at the top of the contact list so can easily send wrongly to me.


n dat firdaus!!! yesterday call my hp to ask whether got band den when gonna put dwn den he say, "dun get too close to nicholas." den i said, "huh??! wat's ur problem?!?!" den he said, "juz dun get too close to nicholas. ok. bye."


siao one. his problem whether i close to nicholas or not ah. juz bcos he's my kor izit. n dat nicholas oso wanna die earlier. today purposely trip me TWO times lor!! n spit ice at me some more when i was collecting money frm jonathan. nvm. i shall get my revenge one day. scorpions forgive, but rarely forget. heh heh heh... he's dead, baby.



can dey abolish thursdays????

YES!!!!! initial d ROX!!!!!!!!!



went to watch initial d today. ZHOU JIE LUN IS SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg.... his crying, although is fake, looks so sweet lor!!! i love him more & more.



edison chen oso lah. he's a good guy. but his role is so damn small lor. haiz. n zhou jie lun is so damn thin. i wonder how he manage to memorize all his lines when he cannot memorize his lyrics? i still love ni ting de dao. my translation is pretty good, rite? hahax.


went to walk around orchard road wif tan & lim. my stupid shoes r so damn uncomfortable lor. so i bought a new pair. thank god for the great singapore sale. practically every shop in far east is having sale lor. now my feet r covered in blisters. i swear nvr to wear dat pair of shoes ever again.


besides buying the slippers, i oso bought a pair of earrings. cos 3 for $12, so share wif dem lor. wear on 1 ear still ok, but wear one 2 ears not nice one. maybe give dem to maxine ang or wat.


n tan pierced the centre of her ear AT LAST. how many times she say wanna pierce in the end nvr pierce. but today she did. she forced us to force her to pierce.


it's quite nice lor. i considered piercing dere for my LAST n FINAL hole, but she kept saying very pain. frm a scale of 1 to 10 i asked her to rate the pain n she said it was 9!!!!!!!! OMG. maybe i'll pierce a triangle or wat lor.


but is really quite nice lor. although the woman pierce the back very in. tan dare to go back to dat shop in heeren where i pierced n my ear got swollen!!!!!!! wah lau. but today is not dat stupid guy. is a girl lor. the girl obviously pierce better than the guy.



den tan kept saying her ear pain ear pain. therefore, my leg pain, tan ear pain, lim stomach pain. hopeless!!


arghh. dun feel like going to sch tomorrow sia. actually, i dun feel like going to sch every single day of my life!!!!!!! dammit. wat dey teach has no use in ordinary daily life, anyway.


i wish every day is youth day sia. haiz. i seriously need more going out shirts.



tomorrow jaslin gonna come to do the cme project. i got a feeling we'll end up not doing a single ting, as usual.



where?? where can i pierce my last n final ear hole??? ppl keep encouraging me to pierce my nose. oh, PLS. i hate my nose. piercing it will only draw attention to it. den tan say she sponsor me pierce my lip. no way, man. den cannot play horn liao, must transfer to percussion. juz as well, percussion sux anyway.


i discovered dat almost the whole band is against the percussion section!!! wahahaha. luckily wong nvr put me in dat section sia. if not my face dunno throw to where liao.


speaking of sponsoring piercings, i OFFERED to sponsor lim to pierce her 2nd hole lor. but she dun wan. if anyone sponsored me to pierce my earn i will gladly accept it wif no qualms, baby. lim is so scared of her mother. i dun blame her. her mother is a tyrant. wah lau, got attitude problem one lor. haiz.


my feet r aching. n i love zhou jie lun.




nothing's gonna change my love for u...u gotta noe by now how much i love u...JAY!!!!!!!!!



yuck, i'm being mushy.

You Can Hear It (translated: Ni Ting De Dao)
Jay Zhou Jie Lun

Who can know better than me
That your gentleness is like feathers?
Secretly lying in my arms
Only you can hear it.

And does anyone else know
You smile is like a hug?
Wanting so much to hide your good qualities
So that only I can see it.

Standing on the rooftop saying to the wind
That I don't want to be pushed around.
I once hated the raining skies
Until I heard someone say 'I love you'.

Pre-chorus:
Sitting on the second floor of the theatre
Looking at the crowds pass by.
Why is it that day
We were secretly smiling to ourselves?

Chorus:
I guess I'm too dependent
Just when we put down the phone
Determined to be like a simple child
Silently watching our love.
I know I cannot be too dependent
Scared that you will spoil me
Your smell is still here
I can't bear to leave.

went to church wif father ang & jaslin for the stupid cme project. had to wake up so early. was yawning away at mass.


today dey were toking abt humility. i tink. after mass took a few photos.



i so have nothing to say lor. jaslin coming to my house on tues to finish up.



was listening to zhou jie lun's ye hui mei cd last nite. his 4th album was named after his mother. n i concluded dat ni ting de dao is STILL my fav zhou jie lun song.


ni ting de dao belongs to no. 11. whenever i listen to it den will tink of him lor. although he graduate & i dun like him liao, but still. i'm gonna translate the ni ting de dao to english. try my best lor.


qing tian belongs to nicholas. NO, i nvr liked him ok. cos at dat time he was still crazy over joline, n the line 'cong qian cong qian, you ge ren ai ni hen jiu' reminded me of him. dat line, btw, when translated means 'long long ago, a person loved u for a long time'. someting like dat lahh.


anyway, dat was the song dat led me to like zhou jie lun.


ge qian belongs to u-noe-who. actually, gui ji oso belongs to him. haiz.


wheee. tomorrow gonna watch initial d!!!! see whether is really as boring as ncholas said. he said watch dat show waste money only. but i wanna see zhou jie lun cry lor!!! sure very touching one.



i have nothing to say liao. gonna translate the song.

since there is nothing to blog abt today, i shall reveal a few superficial little known facts.

• my left eye is smaller than my right eye.
• my right foot is bigger than my left foot.
• every girl has a bitchy side. it's juz a matter of whether dey show it or not.
• girls ARE better than guys.
• i dun really hate anyone in dis world. except dat ONE extra person.
• i dun hate sch; i despise it.
• i'm not gonna get a distinction for the unsw writing competition. neither is xavier, no matter wat he says.
• the world is decreasing in gentlemen.
• the world is increasing in idiots.
• i wanna learn how to read tarot cards.
• i wanna learn how to do palm reading.
• music heals the soul.
• it's not dat i'm good in english; it's juz dat the standard in the sch is so bad dat it makes me look like i'm good in it.
• peipei (the dog) likes cuddles as much as junior.
• the only kind of bug i'm scared of is flying cockroaches.
• is not dat no one is perfect, it's juz dat no one dares to be.
• i'm not scary. or fierce. or proud. or dao.
• isn't it great how girls can blame their mood swings on pms? guys, on the other hand, can only blame it on their raging hormones.
• i hate the arrangement of the new band commitee.
• who said nice guys always finish last?
• dogs have dreams juz like humans.
• dogs understand wat u're saying.
• madagascar is a stupid movie.
• devils exist; angels don't.
• miracles can nvr happen.
• there is no such ting as 'love at first sight'.
• neither is dere such a ting as 'forever'.
• lim shih yann takes a damn long time to reply msgs.
• mcfly rules.
• no one is as confident as dey seem.
• i hate my nose.

it's FINALLY friday!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.



haiz. i have an ulcer. in between my jaws at the back right side of my poor mouth.


today is ncc day. their timing was out. n azhar was shouting so loud. dunno how sia. later still got voice some more. haiz. i discovered dat the guy dat looks best in his ncc uniform was james.



really!!! my ex kor ma. must be proud of him. anyway it's a fact wat.



anyway. today is oso nicholas's bdae. i asked him wat he wanted for his bdae. he had 2 wishes.



the 1st one was to go band. his parents dun allow. so bad lor. juz wan approval only wat.


unfortunately, i cannot say the 2nd one here. it's a pure & innocent wish though.



i collected more money today. so sux lor. dat dina!!!! i told her to bring so many times liao she STILL forget!!! wan me ask my bouncer go whack her den she bring ah?!?!?!? bloody hell. i m SO pissed off ok. told her for TWO days already still forget. wah kao eh!!!!!!!!!!! now only left a few lor.




feel like sprouting all vulgarities here.




but i m a cultured person.



i shall not do so.



i shall give the debtees one more week chance.




if not i shall cancel their order, NO MATTER WAT ZUL SAYS.







GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I NEED TO LET OFF STEAM. DAT'S Y I'M TYPING IN CAPITALS.




SADLY I CAN'T SCREAM COS THE STUPID NEIGHBOURS WILL COMPLAIN.









GET OFF MY CASE ALREADY.





as if i dun have other tings to worry abt. still must add some more. n more. n more. n more.






forgettit. tink happy tots. tok happy tings.



yann came to my house today. she showed me the pic of the shuai ge she saw at the religion camp in friendster. den she played neopets. wahaha. her neopet is DIM WITTED. mine is VERY CLEVER. jealous, lim?? jealous??????


i had tuition at 3, so she left wif me.



i saw the bulletin dat izzati posted. i liked it so much n tot it was so damned true, so i reposted it. i shall repost it here oso. the one is larger & coloured sentences r the ones dat r very very extremely true.

Message: Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible because u think tat he doesn't miss u?

Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, sweet feeling.U will be sitting around wondering if u meant anything to him.Thinking if he ever cares about u.

Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him.Looking out of the window hoping that he will surprise u by appearing downstairs. Sitting in front of the television but thinking of him missing the final episode of your favourite show.Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u went out together.Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future.

Logging on to the internet hoping to see him online.When u realise that he isn't online u will start worrying if he is okay.

Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess. It exposes u to loneliness. It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.U know that u really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving & caring for him.But missing someone and not knowing if he is feeling the same is terrible. U feel as if u are being left alone.

So if u miss someone, tell him and let them know.At the same time, ask if they miss u. Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid.If u are the one being missed and u know it, let the other party know. if u miss him too, tell them.Don't let them wait.









isn't it so damn true?? but i m so not gonna tell the other person dat i miss him. wat do u tink i m, some kind of idiot??!?!? i dun tink he even noes my name. dis sux.



haiz.




yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away...