well. today juz proves it. God doesn't exist.



& I CAN NVR SHOW MY FACE ANYWHERE ANYMORE.


so bloody sia sway can!?!????!!?!?!!



STUPID steven wong. n his STUPID suggestions. he shall be added to the permanent list of ppl who piss me off dat's blu-tacked on my cupboard door.



wah lau!!! last min change say ALL speech participants must say lor!! NO drawing lots or watever. wah kao kanasai... so scary lor!!! everybody staring at ME on stage, the FOCAL POINT. the frst face i saw was wenglin's when i was backstage. when i came out den suddenly got ppl screaming n clapping away at the sec 3 side. tink it's beatrice dey all lor. den after dat i saw hasren's fierce, gonna-kill-me-wif-dat-look face. FREAKED me out ok. so i started mumbling away like a FUCKING BULLET TRAIN in the BLOODY MIC. ALL THE WHILE STARING AT THE PAPER. even writing zhou jie lun's name on top didn't calm me down. i was practically shaking lor.



dis experience reminded me of when i was in pri 5. but the pri 5 one even WORSE sia. i tink jean should noe lor. dat's the most embarrassing moment lor!! until now i STILL can't look back n laugh it off.



stupid racial harmony day. stupid steven wong. stupid interhouse. stupid *ahem ahem*




ARGHHHHHH. HOW CAN I SHOW MY FACE IN SCH TOMORROW?!!!!?!? I M IN A FRENZY.





even i didn't noe my voice could be dat low, as peipei said. i can't even remember wat happened on stage lor. all i can remember is me walking on stage n den the rest is a blank. crapp.


i got a consolation prize for dunno wat. i didn't even noe dey were giving out prizes lor. until i heard nadiah say my name. gahhh.


Y THE HELL M I IN PARAMOUNT?!?!!?!?




tomorrow i'll juz slunk off somewhere n hope dat no one sees me until everyting has worn off. but luckily i'm not as bad as the burghley guy. i was laughing away at him, despite the sia swayness i felt.




tomorrow is the band concert. i got a feeling i will sia sway myself more n mispitch for the stupid classical canon.