Have You Ever
S Club 7

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away
Though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round
Tell me

Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wish there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see?
That's the way I feel about you and me, baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin' down the road you should be taking
I should know
'Cause I loved and lost the day I let you go

Can't help but think that this is wrong
We should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I finally realize, it was forever that I'd found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round
Tell me

Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wish there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see?
That's the way I feel about you and me, baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin' down the road you should be taking
I should know (I should know)
'Cause I loved and lost the day I let you go

I really wanna hear you say
That you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away
Can't you see?
Even though the moment's gone
I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round
Tell me

Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wish there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm so sorry)
Can't you see?
That's the way I feel about you and me, baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin' down the road you should be taking
I should know (I should know)
'Cause I loved and lost the day I let

Yes, I loved and lost the day I let
Yes, I loved and lost the day I let you go

FINALLY CAN BLOG. stupid blogger. sign in so many times still dunno wat cannot be found sia.


haiz. been feeling depressed n sick these few days. my throat hurts. can't laugh. can't smile. even if i laugh i'm only forcing myself, or rather, in self-denial. so ppl, pls put up wif my mood swings for a while yeah? n trust me, it's not PMS.


it's not cos of sch work or anyting. juz feel depressed. it's good to be in depression. yeah, my self esteem & confidence goes down, but at least i lose weight. like last time. i'd rather be in depression n lose weight than to have no depression n get fatter by each SECOND. like dat araxes wannabe. eww. maybe in the end i'll end up killing myself or someting. no promises.




dis is such a depressing post. haiz.. can't help it cos i'm depressed ma. therefore i shall take dis time to congratulate all the happy ppl in dis world. especially the happy couples:

1. anthony ang n molly chua. my parents. who else?
2. maxine ang n mai. although not official, but hey.
3. claudia ang n melvin/delvin. can't decide between the two.
4. shih yann n her shuai ge.
5. li zhen n *ahem*
6. jaslin n *ahem*
7. jay n his reporter gf.
8. u-noe-who n his mushroom. (dunno who dis mushroom is, but whoever she is, she's a lucky girl. cherish the moments k? he's a good guy, except dat he, u noe, smokes.)
9. ren feng n her stead frm peicai.
10. azhar n his crush. hope he can finally win her heart.

damned. i m so bloody depressed ok. ho hum. wat else. oh yes. i do not understand y ong go n put dat nazruddin back lor!!! wat the hell. so idiotic lor. he's such an irritating, thick-skinned, arrogant male chauvinistic PIG. he sux. i tot after ong kick him out he will change for the better, but apparently NO. he is worse than before. he is such an ASSHOLE. n worse of all he is sitting next to me. i'd choose bernard over him any time.

shall post a song next. hahax. everytime feel depressed den will post songs. cos songs express me.

e-mail my heart
britney spears

It's been hours, seems like days
Since you went away.
And all I do is check the screen
To see if you're ok.

You don't answer when i call
Guess you wanna be left alone.
So I'm sending you my heart my soul
And this is what i say

Pre-chorus
I'm sorry, oh so sorry
Can't you give me one more chance?
To make it all up to you.

Chorus
E-mail my heart and say our love would never die and I
I know you're out there and I
Know that you still care.
E-mail me back and say our love would stay alive.
Forever
E-mail my heart.

I can see you in my mind
Coming on the line.
And opening this letter that I've seen a hundred times.

There's a picture of us too
I look so good on you.
And can't you please forgive for the hurt I've put you through?

Repeat pre-chorus
Repeat chorus
Repeat pre-chorus
Repeat chorus

Forever
E-mail my heart.

forgot when was the last time i blogged.. blog so many times liao.. wahaha.. dat's the lamest excuse i've ever heard man..


anyway. maxine ang aka moosan hong ah zhu has left for camp today. she will be back on wed. luckily my e maths common test postponed to next week sia. if not dis week sure die one. haiz.



band was quite ok today lor. wasted most of the time on the stupid speech day concert which i dun even wanna perform for. i wanna perform for the PARADE!!!!!!!!!!!!! goddammit. sob sob... anyway. still quite fun lah. saw the gavin aka damned fierce guy n the ong jian guo at the prizegiving rehearsal oso. as usual, i acted dao/blind. dunno y lehs. the guest of honour is fandhi ahmad (sp?) watever.


the stupid gu zheng took damned long lor. n ho vee shing shouted at dem cos dey take too long to set up the gu zheng. wahahahahaha. (jaslin chew u better go back n fan xing yi xia ba!!)


when it was finally the band's turn to perform, it was damned hot ok. i was sweating like mad. n the stupid gay club was watching lor. er xin. whole day chi bao fan mei shi zuo den hang around. den after the rehearsal went back to the band room. theodore help us to record the digital prisms n singapore rhapsody so dat we can hear. wah lau eh. ong go n put nazruddin back lor. now the whole horn section is haywire cos he was not wif us during the previous rehearsals den now dunno when to play wat. haiz...


i m in a musical n a bit sad mood today. so i shall post a song. time to throw my contact lens tonite n change a new pair.

oops. forgot to post dat my auntie frm hong kong came on sunday. hee.



anyway. juz a recognition(sp?). today quite ok lah... i didn't fail my a maths test on quadratic equations!!! wahahahaha. i got 8/12. but dat test oso not gonna be included in the CA so pass oso no use. gonna have another one dis friday cos a lot of ppl failed.


yay!!! tomorrow all the a maths period change to cme!!! cos bryan oei nvr teach cme since the beginning of the yr so now must catch up. wakakakkakaka. cme is batter than maths any day.





hms. den nothing else happen liao. later got tuition at 4 sia. haiz. sianzzzzz.

i realized dat the problem of downloading the blogskins has nothing to do wif the com, but wif the stupid internet explorer. therefore i m now using msn explorer n so i can download my current blogskin. yippee!!!! haha. i m mad.


anyway. went for band today. i was super sian ok. damned boring lor. in the end i was so bored n frustrated, i juz anyhow played. as if ong got notice like dat. cos i play so soft ma. wahaha.


den he drag drag drag until like 1.10 lor. supposed to end at 1 ok!!!! n i was so damned niao ji. den after going toilet went to somerset wif li zhen n shih yann to watch movie n see li zhen pierce her ear. she pierce the 2nd one on her left ear. actually i didn't plan on piercing today, but den stupid tan force me. cos i oso force her to watch movie. but watching movie n piercing ears r 2 different tings ok. i now have 9 holes. no, i did not count wrongly cos i closed the one inbetween my 1st n 2nd one. i dunno wat i was tinking when i pierced dat hole man. so ugly. i tink i was mad. anyway, my new hole is above my 3rd one. dat stupid guy dun even let me choose the stud lor. i dun wan dat ugly stud ok!!! i got dunno how many liao lor. sianz.



now got nothing to do. all the dogs r making noise cos mother n father r having a marriage encounter meeting. den have to keep all the dogs. haiz. poor peipei. she is scratching my leg. junior n cracker fought juz now n dat cracker scratched my leg. now dere is a red mark dat is popping out. poor me.

i realized dat the problem of downloading the blogskins has nothing to do wif the com, but wif the stupid internet explorer. therefore i m now using msn explorer n so i can download my current blogskin. yippee!!!! haha. i m mad.


anyway. went for band today. i was super sian ok. damned boring lor. in the end i was so bored n frustrated, i juz anyhow played. as if ong got notice like dat. cos i play so soft ma. wahaha.


den he drag drag drag until like 1.10 lor. supposed to end at 1 ok!!!! n i was so damned niao ji. den after going toilet went to somerset wif li zhen n shih yann to watch movie n see li zhen pierce her ear. she pierce the 2nd one on her left ear. actually i didn't plan on piercing today, but den stupid tan force me. cos i oso force her to watch movie. but watching movie n piercing ears r 2 different tings ok. i now have 9 holes. no, i did not count wrongly cos i closed the one inbetween my 1st n 2nd one. i dunno wat i was tinking when i pierced dat hole man. so ugly. i tink i was mad. anyway, my new hole is above my 3rd one. dat stupid guy dun even let me choose the stud lor. i dun wan dat ugly stud ok!!! i got dunno how many liao lor. sianz.



now got nothing to do. all the dogs r making noise cos mother n father r having a marriage encounter meeting. den have to keep all the dogs. haiz. poor peipei. she is scratching my leg. junior n cracker fought juz now n dat cracker scratched my leg. now dere is a red mark dat is popping out. poor me.

tried looking for a new blogskin but whenever i found a nice one, dis stupid com can't uplode the html code. n i found a really nice one lor!!!! haiz.



good news!!! i passed my 2.4 wif a times of 17.21 mins!!! the passing time is 18 mins. thanx to yvonne yeo shu fen who had to run again cos of sonika n me. actually she ran before the hols n passed liao, budden she ran again yesterday to push me n sonika n run. thanz again!! wahaha.


got my prgress card today. idiotic man. overall quite ok except for chinese n e maths. wah lau eh. stupid chinese lor. i hate chinese. the stupid lesson is so bloody boring k. n bryan oei's remarks r "she is a cheerful girl n is capable of achieving good results." someting like dat lah. den he ask us to read between the lines. den wat? cheerful is crazy izit. wah lau. hmpf!! when i told him dat he laughed n laughed. he said he knew i would say someting like dat. maybe he should add in my reamrks dat i m predictable oso. ha.

wat the hell. dat stupid dog is getting on my nerves ok. i dun understand wat is his problem. he is damned irritating lor. who else but dat stupid cracker. if next time the hdb guy come again i shall be the first to vote dat cracker shall go. (truth hurts claudia ang) every night he will be barking n scratching the door lor. n dat pig wun even get up to help her dog open the door. n when i open the door to let him go put, the moment i m juz going to sleep again, he will come n scratch n bark n whine outside my room door. i cannot stand him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! next time when i have my own house i m not ever ever gonna get a dog, much less a shnauzer. dey r the most irritating breed of dog. n the one in my house is the king of irritating-and-smelly-ness.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANNA PERFORM FOR SPEECH DAY PARADE!!!!!!



so unfair ok. stupid ong dun wanna let the band perform for the speech day parade cos he "dun wan to waste time and wan to concentrate more on the compeitition." besides, speech day supposed to be so early one meh? last yr is like yr end lor!!! wth. if at yr end den by dat time syf already over den can perform rite. i dun wanna perform for the bloody speech day concert!!!!! it's damned bloody boring k?!?!?!?! whole day play the same 2 songs not sian meh. sob sob....


band is oso a uniform group ok!! den we should participate in the parade oso wat!!! wah lau!!!! wat's the meaning of dis?!?!?!?!?




okok. haven't been blogging cos was busy doing the english project which was supposed to pass up yesterday but anselm paul nvr come. den today he oso nvr ask for it. zao zhi dao dun rush liao lah. hmpf!!! dat james's group only do 8 pages man. -_-" n my group is like almost done except the content pg.



wat else.......... dun tell me so little tings happen in such a long time meh. dis proves 1 ting: my life is a shit. ok, not so crude. my life is B-O-R-I-N-G. haiz. the stupid song in my blog has disappeared into thin air!!!! gone, juz like dat *snap fingers*


shit man. i forgot wat i wanted to say lor. i must go n find ong hui qi to suan zhang lor. she's dead baby.

I HATE LIARS.



dis is the statement of the day pls.


in case no one noes.


ARGHH forget it already.





anyway. had a full day of band today. frm 8 to 5. omg tomorrow need to wear full u lor. means must get up early n adjust my sock.. blah blah... i hate to wear full u. cos got tie. i hate to wear ties. if not tie still ok. i dun understand y it is so hard to adjust the socks. until now i still dunno how to wear dem to the correct length or watever.



hms. nothing else i guess.





I HATE LIARS.

ok. so i didn't do ALL my hw n i didn't didicate my whole day to hw. but i did some ok!!! gimme a break man.


i finished my english compre cos is the most imp. cos got english on monday ma. den later do r & r n english file... if not later the paul sure dere nag nag nag one... still say we attitude sux man.. er.. wateva!!

den did 1 chap of bio n half the mcqs of chem.. stupid sia.. chem give so much of hw... n half of the qns i dun even noe wat the hell dey r toking abt. as if we noe whether iodine n dunno wat chloride mix or not.



wah kao. still got chinese lor. 2 bk reviews ok. i dun give a damn abt chinese man. besides, even the government oso agree dat chinese not so important wat.



haizzz.... the air con guy is here to fix the air con so cannot do work properly.. luckily peipei not at home if not she sure bark n bark at the vacuum man.. she went to work wif mother!!! cos she likes car rides ma..



anyway. i'm gonna pierce another hole.. but dunno whether should close my second hole on my left ear or not.. so stupid lor me.. go n pierce so close together.. siao one.. but no loss cos when pierce dat time oso not even pain.. the only loss is my $3.90.


i cannot stand it ok. my right ear feels so dirty. when can i take out the stud n clean my ear??? sob sob...


i uploaded a pic of my right ear in friendster.. so anyone who wans a close-up view of my right ear can go n see.. bwahaha... siao one lah me.. i oso wanted to upload the pic of me n claudia ang.. my previous desktop pic but the image too large or wat lah.

oh yeah. forgot to mention dat claudia ang came back frm china on tuesday. didn't go n fetch her frm the airport cos i was lazy to go n besides i juz came back frm camp on dat day some more.



got nothing else to say liaos.. i sound so sian rite.. cos i m.. whole day of doing hw... oh yeah. claudia ang bought a purple box for me frm china.. dunno can put wat. my earrings? hahax.

juz came back frm walking the dogs... didn't do my hw today.. hahax... it's expected anyway. so i cancelled the [roject meeting wif jaslin tomorrow n decided to dedicate the whole day of hw to it!! i m such a good girl ya noe??



dis shall be a short post cos ddn't go out today n so nothing much happened. one day of not going out n i'm bored to death. haiz.

The Hardest Thing
98 Degrees (girls' version)

We both know that I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killing me
It's killing you
But both of us trying to be strong
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves me
And trusted me fast asleep
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
He's been good to me
And he deserves better than that

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you i don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my heart's not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending i don't love you

I know we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can get on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind
Like Doctor Zhivago
All my love i'll be sending
And you'll never know
'Cause there can be no happy ending

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you i don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my heart's not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending i don't love you

Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to I can't stay
I've made up my mind
There's no turning back
He's been good to be
And he deserves better than that

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you i don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my heart's not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending i don't love you

juz came back frm band camp... so tired.. though i was a leader i oso didn't do much lors... like i said, i'm not leader material. i mean, i can only do small-scale leadership like monitor all dat but definitely not big-scale leadership like leading a camp; organizing camps... blah blah... dat's precisely y i dun wanna be the band major. i'd rather be a behind-the-scenes person u noe...



anyway. i'm coming down wif a sore throat. cos at the camp we play dodgeball. but i didn't play lah. hahax.. my group defeated all the other 5 groups u noe!!! the other 5 didn't even have a chance man. now i noe y ppl say having jonathan in ur group is good sia. heh heh.


wat else. oh yeah. we had camp wif the npcc. saw gavin tan. dunno if he saw me lah. we oso had a campfire wif the npcc lor.... saw xiao mu ou!!!! he's so CUTE ok. u noe the 'i not stupid' hong wen fu? the very smart em3 one. yeah. xiao mu ou looks almost like him k. only xiao mu ou is cuter. i call him xiao mu ou cos he's so damned CUTE lors. omg. he's so CUTE!!!


i tink i'm mad n overwhelmed wif cuteness of xiao mu ou. omgomgomg. ARGH. but too bad he's quite short lor. dunno whether he is 164 cm n above or not. 164 cm is the minimum requirement mah. must be at least 5 cm taller den me. if not go out wif him will feel so bloody big lor.




wat sia. haven't even start doing my hw lor. n wednesday is the only day dat can really sit down n do lor. cos monday & tuesay got band camp. thursday gonna do cme project wif jaslin. friday n saturday got band again. wait. i tink i mentioned dis before lor. i m in a musical mood today. i tink i shall post a song's lyrics!!!

juz came back frm the 5km walk for the cancer kids. dere's someting i dunno. wat does walking have to do wif cancer??? dere's not even anyting publicising the cancer kids lor.



n sonika said dat i always complain in my blog. oi where got lor. dis is not complaining. dis is...er...voicing my comments. i m ok.




oh man. haven't found a bag to put my camp stuff. not dat i have packed any anyway. i haven't even looked at the list of wat to bring.





i cannot decide on a good msn name. dere's nothing good!!! hm. maybe i should take my blog title yeah? dat's a good title. wat is it again? i'm not the girl who lets u break my heart or someting.



quite true. i have become hard-hearted after DAT incident. haiz.


zhen shi by zhang hui mei is the perfect song for me.

heeheehee. maxine ang is so smart. she helped me fix the blog problem. in any case, i have changed my blog layout. for ppl who still se my old jay chou one, press the 'refresh' button. the new one should come out.




anyway. stupid si on!!!! he came wif me to buy the tidbits for the camp DEN he ran away wif my $1 AND the tidbits!! wat the hell. how old liao still so childish. later he finish all the tidbits den my poor group dun have anyting to snack on!!! n my money some more. he dun even wanna give a single cent man. wat an idiotic, lousy asst. leader man. i rather have jia huan lor. hahahax. SHAN CAI!!!




grr. holidays like not holidays lor. monday n tuesday got band camp, wed got tuition, friday n saturday got band AGAIN. can u see a pattern? seems like most of my time is given to band. n the teachers give so much of hw some more!!!! wah lau. especially chem man. bio oso got. dammit sia.



i dun care. after syf i m going to skip band for at least one practice. i dun care wat ong says ok. n got the speech day some more. i got the english award!! hahax. someting unbelievable is dat gavin, if u still remember him, got 1st in normal tech u noe!! omg. n my supposedly 'stead', ong jian guo got 3rd. unbelievable man.




hmmms. tomorrow must go sentosa sia. haven't even tell mother n father yet. haiz. linda n yiting r leaving for venice tonite.

god dammit!!!! dis bloody blogger is bloody low class ok!!! wat the hell. the bloody creators of blogger should bloody upgrade the bloody website!!!!!!!!!




anyway. claudia ang left for beijing, china yesterday for a sch trip. n today melvin n delvin came cos i met dem at my sch bus stop den dey wanted to come. poor little claudia. missed a good chance.



speaking of dat. apparently i have been in a relationship without me myself knowing. wif whom, u may ask. who else but ONG JIAN GUO. for how long, u may oso ask. oh, i dunno, for 1--2 MONTHS.



n apparently, he has been telling his frens dat i m his stead for 1--2 mths. OMG. i would like to noe, if i have been in a relationship, shouldn't i be the first to noe?!?!?! OMG.


haiz. must remember to buy tidbits for the camp. being a leader sux big time.

gasp. i m sick. i have a bloody sore throat. gasp.



i m sorry to announce dat james lee zhon ern is no loner my kor due to unforseen circumstances. however, i m pleased to announce dat don, theguysittingnexttomeinthescincelablasttime, has taken his place.


omg y m i toking like dis. must be the sore throat. i m getting woozy.


ok. so i KIND OF forced xerxes wee liangwei to be my kor lor. cannot izit. BUT, although he was forced to, he is still quite sweet. i can see y many girls like him. hahax. xerxes is my da kor. don is my er kor. ravi is my san kor. monoshi is my si di. si on is my xiao di. li zhen is my da jie. joline is my er jie. shih yann is my san mei. babita is my si mei. n last but not least, connie is my xiao mei.




bwahahaha. one big happy family. however, it is quite complicating bcos li zhen is my da jie, but ravi is her daddy n he is oso my san kor. hmmm.



anyway. i m oso happy to say dat my kors r all very sweet guys. hahax. n, if u wanna noe, i DID NOT force don or ravi to be my kor ok. don is offer one hor. n ravi is willing ok.


i m oso pleased to say dat all my dis r cute guys. omg manoshi, whose real name is manosh, is so bloody cute ok. so damned blur lor. i wanna ask utheyan to be my di oso. he is cuter than manoshi. heex.


all my jies n meis r chiobus!!! hahahahahahahaa. i m bloody mad today. let's tok abt serious tings now.



went for the band camp meeting today. my group is the worst of all lor. got the ONE person i truly hate in my group. n i'm the leader. bleahx.




my sore throat is hurting like hell. tomorrow can dun go sch??

a maths test is postponed to friday!!! wahahaha.... juz as i wished. but apparently bryan oei said it earlier, juz dat i didn't hear.


omg tomorrow have 2.4. hope gowri will walk wif me n not feign menstrual cramps like she always does. if she does den i oso will lor. if not no one walk wif me. scully she like jia yi dat kind ah, say 2.4 always walk but den when the actual ting den she wanna run.


today got the band camo meeting. dat lim si-on dun wanna share the cost of the tidbits wif me lor!! some asst. leader he is.


dat maxine ang keeps irritating me to do her bloody tuition hw. correction: not HER bloody tuition hw, is the bloody tuition hw she gave ME. wat the hell.


eeeeee i dun wanna go for pe tomorrow!!!!!! pls rain pls rain pls rain when we reach the 2.4 running track. den stuck dere. den dun need to go back to class!!!!! *evil laugh* wait, tomorrow got wat lesson huh.


first 2 periods is pe. den 2 periods of a maths. den mother tongue. den recess. den... chem. den assembly. hm. hope it rain for one hour den when a maths time come liao den stop raining. bWaHaHaHaHa........................



i wonder who invented pe anyway. ok, pe is not dat bad lah. but NAPFA. it's the most stupidest ting i've ever heard in my entire life. n NAPFA was created for guys to prepare demselves to go army ok. wat the hell does it have to do wif girls?????!?!?!?!?!?!?!??



pls pls pls rain tomorrow. best if it rains after assembly den stop at 8.35. do u hear me up dere??? it concerns life n death!!!!!!!! i repeat, if the person up dere in charge of the weather did not hear me. I SAID, PLS PLS PLS RAIN TOMORROW, AFTER MORNING ASSEMBLY N STOP RAINING AT 8.35!!!!!!!!!!!!!



dat should do it. if rain before i go sch den sway liaos. must carry the umbrella n walk.



aiyoh y the hell m i toking crap here. i dun even have anyting to blog abt. haiz.

ARGH. i finally realized how inconsiderate SOME singaporeans are. not ALL. but SOME.



cos on sunday i went to bishan park wif father ang n claudia ang. wif our 3 dogs, peipei (the dog, not peipei the girl. -_-"), which is mine, junior, which is mxine ang's, n cracker, which is claudia ang's. anyway. dunno y suddenly father ang every sunday like to go bishan park so much to walk the dogs man. as u noe, dere's usually a footpath n a bicycle path rite? i simply CANNOT understand y the HELL some BLOODY singaporeans HAVE to ride their bloody bicycles on the bloody footpath. wat the bloody hell is their damned problem?!?!?!?!?! even if dey can't READ, at least can see the big fat footprint in front of dem rite. after abt half an hour i got so pissed off cos some stupid idiotic children AND their parents were riding their bicycles on the footpath, nearly banging onto my dear peipei ok. WAT THE HELL?!?!?!?!?

so i said accidentally-on-purpose loudly, "they're supposed to ride on dis path meh?" wif a very very very super annoyed n disgusted face in front of the mother who was riding her bicycle as well. i mean, parents should noe better rite. next time IF i have any children the first ting i will teach dem is NOT to ride their bicycles or rollerblades or skateboards or skatescooters or watever shit dey would have invented by then on the footpath. so bloody inconsiderate n blind ok. dey find joy in riding over little dogs izit. worse of all dey purposely ride so fast some more. n usually racing some more. so wun look where they're going rite. bloody idiot. the moe should stop worrying abt stupid tings like whether chinese is important or not n try to put some values in those pesky minds of the inconsiderate children now. *pissed off*



ok. i shall stop complaining now. ARGH. got band camp during the sch hols. 14 & 15 march lor. i'm the only girl leader ok. the rest r all boys lor. at least assistant leaders got 3 girls oso. mingyi, jiahuan and... erm....forgot the other one. zong zhi i'm not close to dem one de lor. n the boys surely stick together one. n guess wat?? my asst. leader is LIM SI-ON ok. omg. of all ppl. not dat bad lah. but not dat close to him oso. wouldn't tok to him if not for joline. cos he close to her mah. but i'm not.


hmmm... wat else... oh yeah. tomorrow got A maths test lor. CHAP 4!!!!!!!!!!!!! the one chap i cannot understand. remember how i said the last time the previous a maths test i sure fail? well, i didn't. got full marks some more. hao lian rite. but dis time is really sure fail lor. dun even noe put wat pts where u noe. hope bryan oei will postpone man..


wah lau. today the calvin ang say i'm pai kia. n dina say i'm ah lian. i m so NOT ok. ah lians r girls wif long, rebonded, dyed hair n short miniskirts wif j-pop style. i dun have any of dat. n pai kias (female) r girls who smoke n r ah lians (see aforementioned definition of ah lian) n all dat jazz. for one, i will nvr grow long hair bcos it's so hard to keep. n so ma fan some more. whole day tie here tie dere. secondly, i shall nvr ever smoke cos i hate smokers n dey not only pollute their own bodies but oso the environment n other ppl around dem. u noe passive smokers, ppl who take in second-hand smoke, r more in danger den the actual smoker? cos the actual smoker got filter frm the cigarette to filter SOME poisonous gases but the passive smoker does not.




too tired liaos. wednesday must run 2.4 some more. have decided to fail dis yr.

wah kao eh. stuuuuuuuupid blogger!!!!!!!!!! dammit. i blogged so damned bloody long yesterday n in the end got problem lor!!!!!!!! kanina....


anyway, since i cannot be bothered to blog abt it all over again, i shall juz summarise it. yesterday went to heeren wif lim n ng. 2 aims: one is to watch lemony snicket's a series of unfortunate events n the other aim is to pierce my 9th ear hole.


the movie was quite boring lor. but den some parts oso funny n exciting. lim says dat the boy is quite shuai. so now i noe her definition of shuai. everytime i say got shuai ge den she always ee here ee dere one. yesterday in the mrt saw a shuai ge lor!!! den stupid lim say he so bloody thin. ppl thin her problem ah. as if she very fat like dat.


bought the movie tix first at cathay. den went opposite to heeren to pierce my ear. my right ear, to be specific. at the side dere. quite nice lor. at a very nice spot. only now i can't listen to my discman wif my right ear cos the ear stud is in my ear. bwahaha. at first when pierce is pain for abt 1 or 2 mins. den ok liao. the stupid gun go make my face lor. so dat part very pain but luckily not disfigured. but now ok liaos... yes!!1 one more ear hole n i shall have achieved my goal!!!! of 10 ear holes!!!!! wakakakakaka.



so far i only collected $44.50 for my pledge card. for the nyaa ting lah!! den next sunday must go sentosa to walk for the cancer kids ting so can get 8 hrs of cip points. haiz.



n guess wat. i found u-noe-who on friendster. so bloody idiotic ok!!!! when i likED him, i find him find until kike siao man. den now when i dun like him liao i found him. WHERE GOT SUCH TING????????!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! bloody hell. anyway forgettit. i added him anyway. if it was last time, when i liked him, i wouldn't even dare to add him man. juz go to his account n see wat's he up to only. but now, since i dun like him liao, dere r no hard feelings man. so add lor. see how matured i have become? hahax. bhb. -_-"




now nothing else to blog liao... gotta go down n help father ang carry the groceries up..

omg someting is seriously wrong wif the bloody doodle-board. must complain sia!!!! idiotic man. hmpf!!!!!!!


actually oso got nothing much to blog abt leh. cos nothing much happened. anyway. for the coming band camp, all sec threes will be leaders!! except carol n ivy cos dey r not even coming. i tink dey wanna see who got leadership qualities den choose the band committee frm dere. the point is, so little sec thress lor!! i tink all will get posts ok. the worst of all is band/drum major. therefore, if one does not wish to get picked for dat post, one must act like very slack n not do anyting. bwahahahahaha. *evil laugh*






haiz. all the good guys r taken ok!!! n by 'good guys' i do not mean HIM. HE is not a good guy. he is a pai kia. he is an arrogant asshole which i tink i must have been blind to have even liked him before. by 'good guys', i mean.... hm.... how to say. actually oso dunno how to say lah. the point is all the good guys r taken. one must act fast if one wishes to grab a good guy. see lah, last 2 yrs slacking away den now no good guys left liao. i'd rather be single for ever n ever amen den to be attached to a bastard. not literally a bastard of course. but.. u noe wat i mean.



omg i m getting more n more vulgar. haiz. how?!?!?!?!!?!??!?! heehee. as if i really n truly care.

Fighter
Christina Aguilera

After all you put me through
You'd think I'd despise you
But in the end I wanna thank you
Cos it made me that much stronger

Well I though I knew you
Thinkin' that you were true.
Guess I
I couldn't trust
Cos your bluff time is up
And I've had enough.

You were there by my side
Always down for a ride
But your joy ride just came down in flames
Cos your greed sold me out in shame.

After all of the stealing and cheating you probably think that
I hold resentment for you.
But uh-uh,
Oh no,
You're wrong.
Cos if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable
I am to pull through.
So I wanna say thank you
Cos

Chrous:
It made me that much stronger.
Made me work a little bit harder.
Made me that much wiser,
So thanks for making me a fighter.
Made me learn a little bit faster.
Made my skin a little bit thicker.
Made me that much smarter,
So thanks for making me a fighter.

Never saw it coming
All of your backstabbing.
Just so you could cash in on the good
Before I realize your game.
I heard you're going round
Playing the victim now
But don't even begin saying I'm the one to blame
Cos you dug your own grave.

After all of the fights and the lies
That you're wanting to haunt me
But that won't work anymore.
No more,
Oh no,
It's over.
Cos if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how
To be this way now
And never back down.
So I wanna say thank you
Cos

Repeat chorus

Bridge:
How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust?
So cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to see the truth.
You tried to hide your lies,
Disguise yourself
Through living in denial.
But in the end you'll see
You can't stop me.

I am a fighter and I
Ain't gonna stop (ain't gonna stop)
There is no turning back.
I've had enough.

Repeat 2x

heehee. no longer disfigured!!!!!! hahahaha. the stupid scar is gone. thanx to zam-buk!!!!! i love zam-buk!!!! heeheehee. so happy.


actually is not really GONE lor. still can see it but not so obvious like monday. monday was really bad man.



anyway. i dunno y i'm feeling so happy, wif or without the scar. actually i DO noe y. but i ain't gonna say it!! hahax. nothing much to blog abt. band was damned sian today. could practically sleep. argh!! syf is cominggggggg!!!!! so excited. wish can win at least a silver. i tink at most will get a silver lor. at least get COP lor. haiz.



okies. nothing much to say. so shall go.

HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!! I M DISFIGURED!!!!!! WO HUI LE RONG AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JIU MING AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!







all bcos of a STUPID BLOODY PIMPLE OK. if u read my previous post, u can see dat i told u dat my chin is popping out wif pimples. anyway, i finally couldn't take it anymore n therefore decided to squeeze the most irritating pimple of all on my chin last night. n today i now have a brown mark on my chin. so grotesque ok. looks rotten lor!!!! i have decided to bring my concealer to sch tomorrow so i can apply as n when i wan. WHEN WILL THE MARK GO AWAY, or in dis case, BECOME LESS OBVIOUS/VISIBLE?!?!?!?!?



i so do not have the face to walk around so i came home so damned bloody early ok. hmpf!!! i did not even wan to go in the canteen during recess, so i sat outside the canteen to do my accounts hw. luckily nicholas was dere to keep my company if not i sure look like a damned ugly loner ok. *phew* haiz.............. dun feel like going to sch until the stupid ting go away lor!!! eeeeee. tomorrow got pe some more. i put concealer in the morning den sweat liao sure come off one. wtf.



i noe i noe. i sound super vain rite. can't be helped lor. who ask me to be a girl. but it IS disgusting lor.