Remember Me This Way
Jordan Hill

Every now & then
We find a special friend
That never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found

I know you can't stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay

Chorus:
I'll make a wish for you
& hope it will come true
That life would just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way

I don't need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
& I know that you'll be there
Forevermore a part of me
You're everywhere
I'll always care

Repeat chorus

And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you
I'll be standing by your side in all you do
And I won't ever leave as long as you believe
You just believe

Repeat chorus

yesterday went to wheelock place to borders, cos maxine ang gave me a borders card wif $40 in it n i went to spend it! :)


anyway. i found out dat bks dun interest me as much as before. sorry, mr paul, if u're reading dis aka found out my blog pw somehow.


but dat was when i was at the young adults section. when i went to the adults section THEN got many many interesting bks. not toking porn here, pls.


bought 2 bks called Exes Anonymous & Life Swap. forgot the name of the author of Exes Anonymous. but Life Swap is written by Jane Green. it's a damn thick bk, so i'm starting on Exes Anonymous first.


aiyah. seriously, who really cares wat bk i'm reading now??


den maxien ang wanted to go to birkenstocks. wah lan thier shoes is like $500++ can!? those glitter glitter one. i almost fainted. who would seriously buy a pair of $500++ pair of shoes!? i, for one, would not even dare to walk in dat pair of shoes, IF i bought dem.


mother ang wanted to go threading at browhaus, but after seeing a girl come out after threading wif red blotches around her eyes, she abandoned the idea.


den after dat went to botanical gardens. dun ask me how we ended up dere. i dun even noe. me, maxine ang & claudia ang went mad wif taking photos. father ang & mother ang went for a supposedly romantic walk around the pond, but i suspect dey were toking abt business, as usual. seriously, where is the romance in their marriage??


my nails r so long. i cannot type properly.



three of us have a craving for cake n father ang drove us around trying to find for a cake shop. we ended up at holland village, but got no parking space. den in the end went to Dino. but their tiramisu was not nice. :( although the cheese on top of their carrot cake was nice. :)


today went for band. i FINALLY now how to play the stupid bloody horn solo. dat bernard dun even wanna help me. but dear dear dear xerxes had to play. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA.


n i pumped the clarinet & percussion sections. percussion had to pump 40 cos the quartermaster oso pumped dem 20! who asked dem to be boys. girls r much much better.


anyway, all dat aside. i learnt a very sad news today. gowri is gonna drop. i mean, how could she???


i'm gonna miss the times when she literally dragged me out of my chair to go to the toilet wif her. the times when she waited wif me outside the 3e3 classroon, she waiting for magaret, me waiting for the si da qian jins. the times when she blurted out tings in class without tinking. the times when she helped me tease jaslin & eusebius. the times in bio, me, sonika, her. it's gonna be lonely without her.


it's juz not possible dat she dropped. is someone playing a cruel, horrible joke on me?? or rather, on her?



can someone pls slap me.

had to wake up so damn early in the morning to go to band for stocktaking. woke up at NINE ok. so freaking early. MY 1st day of the holidays n den have to wake up so early. of all days to have stocktaking sia.

when me n yann reached the band room the stocktaking was already DONE!! wah lan. so we juz sat dere n enjoyed the air con. i bossed ppl around. hahaha.



den me, yann & zhen went to orchard mrt station to wait for babita so dat can buy her present. we waited for HALF AN HOUR ok. tan was looking so pissed off. at first we tot of walking off but den decided to wait for the next train. n she was FINALLY on the next train.


tan scolded babita wif a du lan face. me n lim were speechless. hahaah. babita looked so paiseh.


anyway, tan soon was not angry when she tricked babita into agreeing to pierce as a "punishment for being late". so cunning.


after not piercing for so long, i have forgotten the JOYS of piercing. the ting is, i like to pierce but i dun like to take care of it leh. so irritating. everytime must clean clean clean. now i dun care abt it n clean only when i tink of it. my earholes r left to fend for themselves. only now my fourth hole o my right ear is kinda infected cos dat claudia ang whacked it on sunday & it bled. SO PAIN. when i checked it dat nite dere was dried blood on it. EW, pls.


den went to far east cos babita wanted to get her present frm dere. ate at long john's first. tan & me were starving after waiting for so long. both of us at the fish wrap. of all the tings at long john, i only like the wraps & the fries. as usual, lim ate the cheese fries. i tried the cheese n.. um.. let's juz say it's not to my taste.


babita finally found her skirt at Red2. all of us shared.


BAHHH. i was tempted to buy shoes, man. but dey were so damn EX n btw i didn't even have the money. i m so BROKE ok. have to trick firdaus into paying for my ticket on wed. hahaha.


couldn't go to heartland in the end. tan was determined to go dere to pierce cos dat's the only place she trust. of course, me too. i tried to persuade dem to go 77th street to pierce n see whether can not so dat next time i can go n not travel all the way to heartland. sort of like my guinea pigs. haha.


but it was still early. only 2++ only. so all of dem came to my house! babita was screaming away at cracker. hahaaaaaaaaa. her scream is damn high-pitched ok.


babita n li zhen wanted to watch SAW. so i put the dvd on for dem n ran away cos i didn't wanna watch it again. shih yann was looking nervous. :p i wrapped jaslin, wei ting, n father ang's presents in the meantime. i have their presents on my table n now i feel like santa claus. too early for christmas, eh?


when i went back to check on dem, yann was looking grossed out & the other 2 were looking bored. after a while babita played wif peipei. i carried junior. babiat tried to irritate him by putting her face close to him. n she pinched his skin & keep saying, "fat, fat, fat".


in the end, junior snapped at her. BOTH times. n SCRATCHED me. bloody hell.


den dey left at 5 someting. walked tan to her 73 bus stop. came home. did the usual stuff.


boring.

seems forever dat i didn't use the com. hm. forgot wat happened yesterday liao. :x


anyway. today like almost half of my class went to ngee ann poly. got wat mother tongue intensive programme sia.


n it was not even bloody intensive. we juz sat dere doing nothing. make me bring dat stupid zuo wen bk some more. hmpf. so heavy leh.



den PE. omg dat's the worst of all. last thurs didn't come to sch den i ask jaslin whether need to go PE or not den she say dunno cos she oso nvr go. den she ask crystal den she say last week she stay in class oso no one scold.


den in the end we stayed in class. den dis singh walk past n see we're in class & asked crystal & rachel who's the teacher. den dey go n say daniel wee. n dis singh go n tell daniel wee lor. in the end daniel wee punished the whole class by not letting us go recess. dat jaslin kept complaining dat she need to eat blah blah BLAH. like she dun eat for ONE recess will DIE like dat. wah lan. besides, we were the one at fault, so she shouldn't be the one complaining.


only daniel wee kept looking at me like I was the one who instigated the rest to stay in class. hello??



gahh forgettit.



anyway after sch me n yann went to compass. my bag was damn heavy wif the thick, heavy zuo wen bk, chem 10 yr series, accounts exam pprs & all the hol hw. haiz. i can see we're in for a hard time next yr.


went to buy wei ting's, jaslin's & father ang's bdae presents. made my bag heavier.



i bought a lip gloss called gold wine frm missha, a korean brand. hahaha. after a day of hard work must have reward rite. besides my right shoulder & legs were aching like mad. i tink my bag is like 2 kg lor. 2 kgs of weight on ONE shoulder sia. haiz. later my right shoulder higher than my left shoulder ah.


anyway it was a satisfying shopping trip. wanted to buy a wallet for father ang but dere no wallet shops so in the end bought someting else. :)

yesterday went to k box wif the gang. joline ng was late again!!! gahh.


babita didn't bring her ez link n was charged wif adult price. k box was DAMN cold. esp outside. inside the rooms still not so cold. chose a lot of zhou jie lun songs. connie was impressedby my ban dao tie he rapping. hahaha..


joline ng keep saying i can go frm low to high & high to low. hmpf. jealous izit.


stayed dere frm 2+ to 7. i cannot believe i spent FIVE hours singing.


den actually today wanna go out wif LIM SHIH YANN to buy bdae presents ok. den dunno wat's wrong wif her mother, dun let her go. HMPFFFFF.


tot of asking jaslin but better not, saturday already go out wif her. den wanted to ask firdaus but he's not online!!! grr.


so irritating. now must go on thurs.


haiz. tomorrow got sch again.

went out wif jaslin today. didn't wanna stay at home. msged her at 11 plus last nite den she 7 someting come n msg me back! wah lau. ppl still sleeping leh.


anyway, watched flightplan at j8. it's a good show. it's a very very very good show. i promised firdaus i'd watch it wif him, but den felt so bored today.. nvm. i dun mind watching it again, anyway.


bought xun zhao zhou jie lun the movie at sembawang (the cd shop, pls). OMG dat show is damn lame lor! zhou jie lun appeared at the end of the show. he act so funny can!? wahahaha. of course dat's before initial d lah. wahahahahahahahahaah. lame show. shawn yue & daniel wu oso acted. claudia ang was gushing over dem.


den went to ps cos jaslin wanted to buy pure milk shirt, but in the end didn't. she bought a wallet, though. spent DAMN long choosing it lor. even the guy oso look very impatient although he kept smiling.


den went to heartland mall. didn't wanna go home ma. i FELT like piercing my ear! but resisted the temptation. i tried to tempt jaslin to pierce. i even offered to PAY FOR HER ok. but she dun wan!!! say wat nvr prepare. how can anyone not wanna pierce her ears??? esp the 2nd hole!!! sobxxx.


anyway i wanted to shop around but only got $24 ++ left. so bought a pair of BEAUTIFUL shoes at shoe station. i juz LOVE sales ok. esp for shoes! n bags! like in thailand!


actually the shoes i bought r not really shoes. but it's nice ok. BEAUTIFUL. once i bought dat pair of shoes i felt like buying more shoes! i dun tink i can ever own a shoe shop, cos i'd nvr bring myself to sell any of my shoes, esp if it was in MY SIZE. gahhh. i dunno y nowadays love shoes so much. father & mother ang brought back a pair of pumps for me frm their shop the other day. NICE SHOES!!!! maybe next time i can be a shoe designer n buy my own shoes designed by me!!


yeah, rite.


i'm tinking of whether i should take away the password protection. haiz. dunno leh. tag to tell me if i should take it away or not, pls!


ok. back to the subject. den came home n den went out for advanced bdae dinner. i wore my new shoes (ok i can't help calling dem shoes) & walked around in dem. so nicee. mother ang said it was ex ($15), n father ang his shop dat one cheaper. (no, my parents do not own a shoe shop.)


chrishirl, edmund, emmanuel & eduard came too. dey bought me a cake! tiramisu. my FAVOURITE. wahaha. yes, i noe it's fattening. but who cares?? it's MY bdae cake. i was so damn paiseh. chrishirl & edmund PURPOSELY sing so loud for the whole place to hear lor!!!


oh yeah. ather ang, mother ang & claudia ang gave me my present! the sims 2 university!! i was surprised when father ang presented it to me. i mean, i expected dat present, but yesterday dey haven't even bought it yet. mother ang said dey searched high & low for it. :)


yup. i love bdaes. esp if it's MY bdae. :D


i shall be 15 in exactly half an hour!!!

now in joline ng's house, wasting her electricity. didn't wanna go home cos my grandmother is coming n den she'll nag & nag & nag. haiz. i noe she came juz to celebrate my bdae, but... i can't help it. anyway i called mother ang juz now & she said my grandmother is not even dere yet!! grrr.


watched wang zi bian qing wa n joline's house. she's mad abt dat show. the guy is quite shuai, though. but at some angles he's not dat shuai.


jaslin gave me my present today!! it's a bear! juz as i tot. she said she wanted to buy a frog for me. hmpf. but in the end oso nvr. forgot y she didn't. but the bear is nice! thanx! (see, international thanx leh, honoured or not) dat xavier keep saying wanna gimme my present on sunday, exactly on my bdae. den i said dunno whether i'll be home or not den he say he wanna come my house. -_-" den i say dunno if later will be going out wif my family den he say he wanna go oso!


ask him to bring the present on wednesday den he say very bulky n he very shy. oh pls. i should be the one more shy lor. anyway oso nvr confirm wif him when. wahahahahahahhaa. i got PRESENTS!


nicholas told me some shocking news today. i was shocked, n pitied someone. NOT nicholas, pls.


mon & tues will be promotion day. i'm not dat worried abt myself, but i juz hope dat mr kwan can persuade the teachers to promote some ppl frm his class up. i'm not juz hoping for nicholas ok. some other ppl too.

didn'y go to sch today. woke up at 6.40 n decided dat dere was no point to rush anyway, cos today was gonna be a boring day at sch. hmm. wonder can have wat excuse.


anyway. I'M GOING TO 4 EXPRESS, BABY!!!!!! woohooooooooo!!!!! wahahaha.



i got back all my results. the one i did surprisingly well was e maths lor. for SA2 only. got 70 lor! first time get so high. still remember sec 1 my maths total FAIL sia.


stupid McAfee VirusScan keep saying wat my com got virus n keep popping up!! so IRRITATING. say delete delete still dun wanna delete. stupid ting.



watched Fear on HBO today. it's not as scary as the title sounds. i discivered dat reese witherspoon is quite cute when she was young. now, after acting in legally blond, she's bimbo-ish to me. the movie was quite nice, except dat the ending was not.


the guy was cute too. dunno wat's his name. andy someting. he acted as a stalker. he carved 'nicole love 4 eva' on his chest ok!! nicole is reese witherspoon's character in dat show.n den he blew ink on his hand n rubbed it over the carvings so it was like a tattoo. he has a nice figure! if only he wasn't a stalker, den he'd be cute.


yesterday had band after so long. learnt a new song, The Boom. only nazruddin n me went lor!! for the horn section, i mean. hmpf. poor li zhen had to spend her bdae in band.



ok. i'm damn pissed wif the stupid virus scan n i dun wanan blog anymore.

ewww. my haircut on saturday has gone frm satisfied to downright TOOT.


yuck. spent the 1st few periods trying to comb my hair into place.


while doing some white ribbon tingy. the ribbons r bloody cheapskate lor. the quality of the ribbon was like not even cloth. it was PAPER ok. some plasticky kinda ppr. n the ribbon weren't even fastened by safety pins like normal ribbons. it was fastened by double-sided tape!! -_-"


jun had a free hand waxing though.


but i strongly support the cause bcos, of course, i m a FEMINIST!! wahahahaha.



got back my geog, social studies & english pprs.

geog: 41/50
ss: 33/50


my jaw literally dropped when i saw my geog ppr. i really didn't expect to get so high lor. must be the elaine john too lenient liaos, which is good, of course. but obviously got ppl higher than me.


den my ss dropped by 3 marks, but overall is 74, 4 marks higher than mid yr. :)



for the english pprs, my nightmare didn't come true after all. judy tan wasn't dere, anselm paul wasn't glaring, n papa oei wasn't even dere. wahaha. best of all, charmaine wasn't laughing evilly or snickering. in fact, she looked rather.. er... downcast when she got her compre marks.


i forced myself not to use the word SAD cos anselm paul said my vocab must improve. father ang oso said the same ting. :(


n i really must go n hit my head against the wall liao. "i think i know what's your problem." wah lau eh!! how could i ever ever ever EVER make such a mistake?!? "i think i know what your problem is."


wah lan. how stupid can i be?!!! grrr. *slaps self*


alrites. now all i need is ONE more subject. wahahaha. n i can go to 4 express!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!



i tink my science really cannot make it. sobx.

went to thomson plaza, cos claudia ang wanted to buy pens frm popular.


i bought a bk! called, It Happened To Nancy. It's a true story, in diary form, abt dis girl who got raped by a boy on a date n he infected her wif HIV. interesting.


den went to eat delifrance. the new butterfish is not bad. only i got irritated wif the stupid manager cos she's so act busy.



den went to fairprice! bought rocky road. i love rocky road. yummy!! it's the best ice cream ever.


okie. dat's all. EW. y does my breath taste like durian?!?!? disgusting.



i got damn irritated wif disgustingly horny junior. peipei is on heat & dis idiotic junior keep wanting to hump her!!! i couldn't even sleep properly last nite. i even threw him out of my room (not literally, of course) n LOCKED THE DOOR so no one could put him back in. but he kept scratching & scratching n YELPING like someone abusing him like dat. so irritating!!


n dat mother ang unlocked the damn door n let him in again. bloody hell. my poor peipei is so tired.


i kept smacking him until my hand hurt but he juz stopped for a while n continued again. n peipei kept snapping at him. dog fur has gone into my system n i keep sneezing.


in the end i got so frustrated i dumped peipei on claudia ang's bed. haha. it's her turn to suffer. tonight i'm NOT gonna let peipei on my bed. she menstruated all over my bed n it STINKS ok!!! *vomits* n she sleep near to my head dere, not even at my feet, so i can smell it like, so damn near.



now cracker has turned horny too. when claudia ang n i TRIED to walk dem dat cracker kept humping her oso lor!! er xin. last time before junior came cracker wasn't even like dat. stupid junior is a bloody bad influence.


the whole house feels so dirty wif their marking of territory. like, can't dey mark their stupid territory wif someting else other than urine!?!? y not saliva? or fur? y URINE!?!



so irritating. keep wanting to sterilize but dunno y oso nvr.


i now have a headache. i shall not let dem in my room.

spent the whole day waiting at a salon filled wif ammonia-like gas. but i soon got use to the smell. cos i waiting dere for the whole day, thanx to TAN LI ZHEN.


she recommended dis salon in ang mo kio so she, joline & i went dere to try the haircutting skills.


in the end we waited for 3 hrs.frm 2 to 5 ok.


actually i cut my hair at around 4.30, but den had to wait for joline ng until 5 cos she was thinning her hair n her hair was so damn thick.


li zhen even worse. she cut at abt 3 someting den must wait for us. wahaha.


anyway, the wait was worth it. i'm satisfied wif it, but i'm nvr gonna wait for so long again. i'm an impatient person ok.


den after dat went to walk around. walked to interchange & window shopped. reached home at 7 plus.


therefore, it is clear to all dat i have spent my day in a salon is ang mo kio filled wif ammonia-like gas.

yes!! the exams r FINALLY over!! gimme a 5!


the accounts ppr 1 was so easy as compared to acc ppr 2. i finished like, in half an hour. give too much time liao lah!


anyway, after the exams me, yann, li zhen, joline, connie & babita went out. connie wore home clothes & jonathan was OGLING. bloody pervert.


jonathan low eng kiat, mind u. my sec 1 asst monitor.



anyway, the purpose of dis was to buy presents!! cos joline, li zhen n my bdaes r all next week.



went to somerset at first. ate long john. i agree wif shih yann. long john's fries r the best. i had the grilled teriyaki chicken wrap. YUMMILICIOUS!


den went to more than words. OMG i found out i have a fetish for wallets, other than shoes. i saw wallets n i was like so excited, like when i see shoes. (btw, the shoes connie was wearing today was DAMN nice. but i bet later i wear already leg sure pain one. cos my legs r not meant for walking, i tink. wahaha. walking long distances, of course!! esp in uncomfortable shoes.) n den i fell in love wif the nightmare before christmas wallets. n connie bought 1 for me!!! *so touched* i spent a long time choosing. cos all so nice lor!!! i oso learnt dat tim burton is the creator of the nightmare before christmas, aka the director of corpse bride. no wonder i found his name familiar when i saw corpse bride.btw dat movie is not even nice. n oso, no wonder the nightmare before christmas the girl look so much like the corpse bride.




i was damn touched, as i said, so obviously i m easily contented. *sighs in contentment*


den went to buy li zhen's present at blossomz. me, shih yann & babita shared to buy a skirt for her. li zhen was so damn paiseh when we asked her to show us how she looked in the skirt.


went to sembawang to look for joline ng's pfrince turned to frog. but dun have. went to games dunno wat to look for my sims 2 nightlife!!! i felt so weird in dat shop, cos all boys den the games like all so violent one. but in the end shih yann found my dear com game.


n babita, li zhen, joline n yann shared! oi, $42.90 ok.



couldn't find joline's present after searching in many many shops. in the end decided to go hougang mall to buy. so took a train, n bought the cd.


went to my fav shop, ice lemon tee!! i bought a hp chain cos my hourglass hp chain broke. sob. i oso dunno where i put it liao.


i saw the ice lemon tee shoes n felt in heaven. but their shoes the heel dere very hard, so later will have blisters. so i tink buy shoes frm dere is for display purposes only, n not for wearing. shoes r to be seen n gushed over, not worn.


so i tink the whole world should go barefoot.



nvr gone out for so long. feels good!!! even though my legs r aching n my face is so oily. i have a pimple now!!!! sobx. one day out after so long den got pimple.


ok. 'nuff said. i wanna go install my sims 2 nightlife.

today is the WORST exam day.

all the pprs were so difficult!!


ESP chem. i tink chan FS is mad. now i noe how the pri 6 students felt when dey took the PSLE maths ppr. dey say it's hard, n claudia ang was complaining away n she was depressed cos she kept saying she'll fail her maths.



anyway, the bottom line is YUAN WANG AH!!!!


gahh. dunno wat, state the reason, in terms of ions, the difference in acidity and alkalinity of the substances or someting like dat.


HELLO?!?!?!


for one, i dun understand the qn.


secondly, I DUNNO WAT THE HECK IS TO DESCRIBE THE BLOODY DIFF!!! like i CARE wat the diff is, hello???



shit u, chan FS!!!



anyway, the good news is dat everybody in my class passed e maths ppr 1!!! bwahahaha. the highest was 48/50, &, as papa oei put it, it isn't "cassandra, vishal or marselly."


THREE ppl got it. 48/50, i mean. but he dun wanna say who!! wah lan. u GOOD...



haiz. i got a feeling my compre will be like shit like dat. haiz. stupid summary n stupid points. stupid crocodilians!!


watever. i have faced the fact of not doing well for any subject, including english. do not remind me of charmaine's evil laugh. :(

today's a maths exam was easier than i expected, but the trigo qns, as usual, all anyhow do. dun waste time ma. i did the trigo qns in 5 mins. can u believe it?? i skipped dem first den after doing all see got time den go back n do for fun. i noe i'll get wrong anyway.


i dun understand y friendster lets ppl see who viewed their profile, WHEN EVERYBODY IS PUTTING THEMSELVES AS ANONYMOUS!!!! wat the hell?? den wat is even the point in the 1st place!? geez.


but at least today i went to friendster after dunno how many days n den finally can see ONE person who viewed my profile, n dat's tan jo lynn frm my pri sch. she's DAMN smart ok. actually she went to zhonghua den i tink she went into the gifted programme den now she's in njc ip. um. dun even ask me wat's dat, cos i dunno either.


tomorrow is the accounts & chem ppr!! FINALLY. chem juz have to study the mole can liao. my mole is damn lan. all mole qns sure do until like dunno wat one. wat mass over concentration times volume. i see numbers i wanna die liao.



ok. nothing more to say. had a GOOD sleep last nite n wasn't haunted by claculators & words & teachers. :)))))

Useful People (translation: You Yong De Ren)
From the movie 'I Not Stupid'
Singer: Unknown

Who doesn't wish one is a smart person?
Who doesn't wish one can always get a hundred marks?
Who will wish one is stupid and dumb?
Who will want to hear
"You're really very stupid"?

Some things are just so cruel
Some paths don't lead to that door
Not every game has to be won
Some results are not at the end
But in the process

Chorus:
We will not be disheartened
We will clap for ourselves
I'm not as stupid as you think
I have my own door too
Actually it's not that u can't
It's whether you will
Give yourself one more chance
Because we are useful people

tomorrow is the a maths exam. i noe how to do most of the chapters, but LOG is the bloody worst of all.


i have NO idea which idiot created it. n which idiot made it compulsory for exams.


but at least i can do coordinate geometry. heh heh heh.


i had another nightmare a few nites ago. dat during the POA exam i forgot to bring my calculator!!!! OMGGG.


i dunno y i care so much abt exams now. AND have nightmares some more.


i m in a bad mood. do not disturb.

i was haunted by nightmares of anselm paul holding my compo & compre pprs in front of my face, shouting, "how could u get so low?? u r getting too complacent!!"


n i woke up wif a headache, wif the fact dat dat stupid dog making so much of NOISE.


anyway, back to the nightmare. OMGGGG so scary. anselm paul, judy tan n papa oei was all glaring at me ferociously. n judy tan was saying, "dunno how to use dis word still use!" n papa oei was shaking his head.


n i tink charmaine was laughing evilly in the background holding her pprs wif 30/30 for compo & 50/50 for compre. in other words, full marks. *shudder* n she was snickering away.


geez. i got a feeling the damn dream will come true. SOB!!!!!


woke up at 1 wif a headache. went to watch as told by ginger on nickolodeon, den wanna come in?, pimp my ride, & mtv whatever things, all on mtv.


n at the same time studying for social studies/bio.


yup. i HAVE to study wif noise, if not nothing will go in. den took a bath. continued studying bio/social studies PLUS geography while watching zhen qing.


gave up studying at 6, thanx to the headache since 1. but at least some info went into my brain.


my brain is gonna explode.

I'm Not Unhappy (translation: Wo Bu Nan Guo)
Steafanie Sun Yan Zi

Standing at your doorstep again
We are once again silent
How long can we be
Face to face this way?

Verse 1:
Finally you tell me how gentle she is
Although you're still holding my hand
But I'm no longer in your heart

I really understand
It's not that you like the new and loath the old
It was me who wasn't by your side when you were lonely
Don't look at me
Saying that you loved once
Don't be heartbroken
I'm not unhappy
This is not a big deal
But why do the tears flow
I don't know either
Just let me go
Let me enjoy my freedom
Memories are many
Your shadow will fill my life
I'm not weak
Nobody else would know better than you
Although lonely
This will be my
Last time giving way

Bridge:
Hug me tight
Hug me tight again
This feeling
Please let me keep it
Don't ever say
It's your fault
When love comes to this point
Who's right or wrong
Let it go with the wind
Forget everything
I will live better than you

I really understand
It's not that you like the new and loath the old
It was me who wasn't by your side when you were lonely
Don't look at me
Saying that you loved once
Don't be too heartbroken
I'm not unhappy
This is no big deal
But why do the tears flow
I don't know either
Don't say anymore
Maybe this is the best ending
Breaking up now
Is better than you not loving me and dragging on and on
Letting go of your hand
Leave your left and right
I'm moving forward
This will be
Me letting go genuinely

hmm. today's chinese pprs 1 and 2 were easy, except the li jie ce yan, the 1st passage.


anyway. english compre sux, as usual. i couldn't finish the bloody summary cos it was so damn long n i took so long trying to cut it short. bleahs.


i have lost the fight. i can see it now: top for english goes to...

charmaine of 3e2!

or

mohaana of 3e3!



not


araxes of 3e2!



fine. eminem was bloody wrong. failure is my motherfucking option, for Christ's sake.



anyway.



i dun get y the hell ppl tink me n nichoas r together. is it bcos we're close? we're not dat close now. as far as i'm concerned, sonika/peipei isn't the 1st to tink dat way.


i can still remember, ok.


the 1st person was ong jian guo.
2nd was firdaus.
3rd was sonika/peipei.
4th was papa oei/gowri/beatrice (partly thanx to sonika/peipei)


gahhhhh.


can't ppl of the opposite sex be good frens?


not dat i'm complaining. yes, nicholas IS a nice guy.


so? guoyi is a nice guy. james is a nice guy (although kiasu). eusebius is a nice guy. airell is a nice guy. azhari is a nice guy. xavier is a nice guy. alvin is a ncie guy.


but m i attracted to dem?



like my theory says:

nice guys r not good-looking guys.
good-looking guys r not nice guys.
good-looking AND nice guys either gay or extinct.
bad & non good-looking guys r everywhere.


it's the same as:

R(A) is not porn.
porn is R(A).


isn't it?


my theory is not baseless ok. it has proof, n juz go out on the street n u'll see wat i mean. for example,


HE is cute, but he's not nice. (when i say HE only handful of ppl noe, so it's like not really counted)


ok, another example.


kee hwa is not nice, n he's oso not cute. (oops.)



dere. have i proved my point?

Orbit (translation: Gui Ji)
Jay Zhou Jie Lun

How do i hide my sorrow?
The place where I lost you
The scent of your hair
Scatters quickly
I cannot keep up with it.

Verse 1:
Close my eyes
But I still can see
The shadow of you leaving
Under the moonlight
I keep searching
That shadow that I miss

Pre-chorus:
If breaking up is a painful decision
Then before the end
I'm willing to love again
Wish to say to you the love I dare not say
Will anybody understand?

Chorus:
I will stare into space
Then forget you
Followed by closing my eyes tightly
Thinking of that day when someone will replace you
Lets me miss you less
I will stare into space
Then smile
Followed by closing my eyes tightly
Thinking again of your gentle face
Before I forget

The tears in my heart
Blurs my vision
I won't be able to see soon.

tomorrow is the english exam.


for once i did someting abt the english exam. i looked through the phrase bk, n dat is incredible cos ever since i was pri 1, i hae treated english exams like no big deal. bleahx.


anyway, dis english exam is not juz an exam. it's a fight. & only the toughest & strongest will survive.


to quote eminem's Lose Yourself:



success is my only motherfucking option; failure's not.

geez. i no longer love mondays.


today was ALMOST late for sch. woke up at 6.40, den met yann to take cab. wah lan. i tell u the cab companies must really change their changing shift time lor. almost every single empty cab we saw was bloody changing shifts!!!! dun dey noe dat dis time is the best time to earn money?!?! no brains, i tell u.


but anyway, a dear comfort cab stopped n we reached sch at 7.20. the ppl who took the 315 bus we usually take reached the same time as us. wahaha.


anyway, today stayed back for a maths again. n i refreshed my memory on how to do stupid surds & log. the only prob now is idiotic coordinate geometry. i HATE dat topic i tell u.



n den dat papa oei said dat NICHOLAS is my bloody bloody bloody crush!!!! OMG!!!!


i forgot wat he called him liao. but anyway, he said, "ur *watever he called nicholas* sat dere during physics oso i tink." n nodded towards the place where i was sitting.


but at dat time i didn't noe he was toking abt nicholas lor!!! den dunno who said the change hairstyle one den i knew he was toking abt nicholas. SCARE ME SIA. i tot he was toking abt the other one. n i was like wondering how he knew, but in the end it was a misunderstanding so he dunno anyway!!! wahaha!! in ur face, papa oei!!!


n den he continued(after i recovered frm my shock), "i juz scolded him juz now. he failed his physics test."

n den i said, "orh, no wonder he looked so sad juz now."

den dis gowri n beatrice started to make so much noise lor!!! wah lau. n gowri said, "orh, she kiss his forehead n den he not sad already!"

n papa oei said, "u can reach his forehead meh?"


WAH LAU. rao yi quan SHOOT wo rite.



n den beatrice said, "she sing the wat, nothing's gonna change my love for u song to him!!"


*faint*




i tell u i have NVR felt so bloody paiseh wif the exception of racial harmony day & dat time when sonika n beatrice sia swayed me & dat stupid occasion at the sec 3 camp.



but anyway. jaslin chewwww was laughing away lor!! wah lan. wat kind of fren is dis sia. i say her n eusebius oso nvr laugh until so hard lor!!!



grr. i tink i'd better warn nicholas before he really tinks i like him.








which is, obviously, impossible.

dis shall be a short post bcos i have to go n work later at 10.30. heh heh.


anyway, today went to watch the myth wif family ang. it's a long time since i last watched a movie wif dem. i dun even remember the last movie i watched wif dem, besides today.


went to balastier to watch. their cheese dat goes wif the nachos has improved. it is not so watery like last time. i tink the cinema dat sux at snacks is eng wah. GV snacks r the best but their bloody advertisements r so bloody long. bcos of dat i usually go in 5 mins later than starting time, but dere's no diff. their bloody advertisements r like half an hour long lor.


anyway, today i came on the com 2 times to check if LEE YIH YU sent me the stupid speech for english. n he DIDN'T ok. so IDIOTIC. instead of group work it seems like i'm doing the work, n DEY get the marks. wat the fuck sia.


n btw i used to tink dat only HIS words couldn't be taken seriously, but after the impression LEE YIH YU gave me today, i have discovered dat ALL guys' words cannot be trusted. NOT a single one of dem. n it's not like i trust ppl easily. wat dey're doing is making me lose more trust in the human race.


4 more mins.


u noe, sometimes the human race disgusts me. n last nite got bombing at bali again rite? wat wif all the animal abuse n prejudice, dey have to add dis to the list.


wonder wat animals tink of us. let's see wat the human race is capable of:

• animal abuse
• child abuse
• spouse abuse
• racial prejudice
• religious prejudice
• backstabbing
• destroying the ozone layer & implicating every single form of life on earth.
• animal testing (for make-up, not medicine) for the benefits of money n profits. all shops should be like the body shop. dat's y i strongly support the body shop products.
• cutting off sharks' fins n throwing the body back into the sea for the shark to die. like sharks r not already endangered. n it's supposed to be considered a delicacy. who the hell was the bloody sadistic retard who came up wif dis? can u imagine if someone pulled u off the road suddenly, chopped ur hands off, n threw u back onto the road to die? tok abt rubbing salt into the wounds. PLUS wat if ur hands would later be boiled and marinated to a broth?? *shudder*
• self-mutilation.
• committing suicide.

dat's all i have to say. chew on it. n i'm late for work.

i tink out of all the groups in the whole world, S.H.E has the worst
singing.


firstly, ella is like always trying to gek dis low voice. i tink in the beginning her voice WAS like dat, but den the media n all went n said dat she is the most outstanding cos she's not girlie like the other 2, so after all these yrs n compliments, she is trying to make her voice lower to make herself more outstanding.



n selina. OMG she's the worst of all ok. she's the kind dat all girls (except those act cute kinds who like wang xin ling as well [no offence jaslin chewww]) hate & all guys like. she's so bloody act CUTE n act CHIO can. n on top of dat, her voice is like so..... scratchy. the kind dat gives u goosebumps not bcos it's nice, but bcos it's so piercing to ur, or namely, my ear. EW, pls.


hebe.. well, i can't tink of anyting dat's wrong wif her. she IS act cute like selina. but i dun tink she's dat act chio as compared to selina. but her stupidness to be in the group is appalling.


it's a wonder how dey managed to stay so long in the music scene. i m ashamed to say i have their CDs in my collection, which collect dust n take up space only. i must have been mad to waste my money on their CDs. was i following the trend then, of the act cute clones? i hate to tink of dat.


not dat i have anyting against dem. after dis post all S.H.E fans r gonna come after me n boycott me or wait for me outside sch to beat me up. oh, n maybe the government is gonna come after me as well. so listen up, S.H.E fans aka act cute girls who like wang xin ling & 5566.


S.H.E is as irritating to me as posers n girls wif high screechy voices n guys who act shuai/cool but actually dey're not.

oso, no offence ppl, but i oso dun see the sense in typing me as muii. er, hello? ppl wanna make words shorter den come n make it longer. like ME is not good enough. n muii doens't even sound like ME. n muii supposed to be another version of moi? cos i dun tink so.


i noe dis post sounds pretty hostile, but i've had it up to here. i dunno which idiot came up wif typing like dat. is it supposed to decorate the words to make it look nicer? i dunno, cos i've nvr typed like dat.


anyway, back to the music side. the best voice in the music world, i tink it should be mariah carey. is the reader surprised dat i didn't say jay? as a matter of fact, i dun tink jay sounds dat good either, but at least he's not as screechy as S.H.E. back to mariah.


her voice is good ok. n i oso dun tink her breasts r fake. really. dey look real to me, anyway. her figure looks real. she's famous for the hourglass figure, isn't it? but her image now is.. i dunno wat to say. is she following the crowd?


i dun see y she should. is she losing her fan base or someting? i tink her old image was pretty good.


wif the pop-ups of act cute clones, real talents like mariah carey, shania twain & faith hill r trampled below the the stampede.


therefore, ladies n gents, i shall now present u wif a mariah carey song. dis song is quite old, but i tink when dis song was released she was in her prime. rite?

I Can't Live (If Living Is Without You)
Mariah Carey

No, I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way this story goes
You always smile
But in your eyes your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrows
When I had you there
But then I let you go
And now it's only fair that I should let you know
What you should know

Chorus:
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
Can't live
If living is without you
Can't give,
I can't give anymore

Well, I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way this story goes
You always smile
But in your eyes your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

Repeat chorus 3x