today had to rush home frm sch cos got tuition. after tuition dear little claudia ang went wif me to the bk shop! but the stupid shop dun even have a bloody photocopying machine. wah lan. i do NOT understand it. how could bk shops not have photocopying machines?!! the sch bk shop worse sia. last yr until now the stupid machine spoil den still haven't fix. wah lan.



so in the end had to walk all the way to serangoon central. claudia ang came too, after much whining frm me (courtesy of shih yann). she bought me the 17 mag! oh, & Cadbury Mochacino chocs as well. now i owe her $4. sobbb~ damn broke already lah.


den on the way back, i was juz looking innocently ahead of me (cos i was walking; obviously ppl look ahead while walking, if not look at the sky meh.) & dis guy, dunno how old, abt 18--20++, walked past my view (no idea wat dis is called). den obviously he tot i was looking at him, den he smiled. not friendly smile, but.. dunno wat kinda smile lah. after dat he walked past a wall, den when the wall wasn't blocking him, he was STILL smiling! wth. & he even threw an empty plastic bag in the air & caught it, still smiling away at me. wah, catch plastic bag, wat a HUGE achievement. i was like, 'huh??' at first, den later, 'wateva!'


i really dun get guys ok. the ones dat u wan to notice u wun give a damn no matter wat u do, & those dat u dun wanna see/dun even NOE, seem to pay close attention, no matter wat u DUN do.


taken frm this mth's & last mth's 17:

Signs That He's Interested In You:

• he makes eye contact--not just a glance, but more like a short, intense stare to get your attention.
• if he's vocal when in a group, he tends to shower more attention on you than anyone else, mainly because he wants to get to know you better.
• if he's the shy sort, he at least tries to open up communication channels in a subtle way by doing more than saying--such as getting you a drink or offering to help even when you may not need it.
• he faces you during communication and uses a lot of gestures showing that he's involved and open.
• he recently asked one of your friends whether you were interested in anyone.
• he usually catches your eye, smiles and say "hello". he also usually takes the opportunity to strike up a friendly conversation.
• he's proactively added you on his list of online friends, and immediately included you in his group e mails when you gave him your e mail address.

i have no idea how true these are, ok. some of them, not so true. like the last one. so wat if he proactively added you on his list? other guys proactively added me oso wat. does dat mean dey like me oso. LAME, pls. oh, yeah, & the 2nd last one. maybe he's juz being friendly.

oh, & the 1st one. maybe he was juz staring your way, or staring at someone behind you, not AT you. how can anyone be sure, anyway??? jeez.

"It's so funny that we set qualifications for the right person to love, while at the back of our minds we know that the person we truly love will always be an exception."

haven't been blogging. dere really isn't much to blog abt.


went back to Wheelock Place again with li zhen. FINALLY my earphones could be replaced. the indian guy WAS right, after all! maybe Apple isn't dat bad. but luckily i didn't see the stupid chao ah beng. if not....



besides, even if i saw him i doubt i would have recognized him. although i can remember faces, or wat mother ang calls a "photographic memory" like father ang, i will not remember faces like dat chao ah beng. selective memory.


den after dat went wif li zhen to far east, cos we wanted to eat at long john. i hereby announce dat long john's fries r the best, so is their chilli. she bought 2 earrings.


den went to bugis. li zhen wanted to buy a bag. & she told me dat she wanted to buy a haversack cos her shoulder very pain after carrying all those tote bags & sling bags. & den in the end she bought another puma tote bag. -_-"



sob. i was damn broke, so didn't buy anyting. didn't see anyting i wanted anyway. but it wasn't really a wasted trip, cos my baby's earphones r replaced. wahahahaha.


oh yeah. before dat went to NYP. our guide was DAMN nice to bully sia. saw on his name tag dat his name was Lim Kian Hong. beatrice was mad. she kept telling him dat ying ying wanted his number! OMG. we had a talk in a lecture hall i tink. darren had to go & sing songs cos he joined campus superstar!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. the host kept asking him to sing zhou jie lun's songs & me, who was fiddling wif the video cam cos jie sheng dey all wanted to tape darren singing, said, "wah lau, dun insult jay chou lah." rather loudly. den beatrice & agi went, "wahhhh..."


ok fine.


anyway it's a fact wat.



den later went to the nursing & business blk all dat. until now i still dunno wat course i want. all the courses dat seem interesting have to go JC first den later go back to poly & do the course. wat a waste of time.


didn't even go to see other courses. i tink xavier has given up his plan of going to the nursing course, which is wat i heard frm li zhen.


dey kept making us walk up & down. so HOT sia. their air con like no air con one.



& i gave-or rather forced my goodie bag onto james. he was nice to help me carry it all the way. after dat other ppl starting piling their goodie bags on him. oops. nvm lah, take it as a sort of training for him for his future wife. :D



"Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say."

ARGHHH!!! stupid Apple at stupid Wheelock Place!!! their stupid service centre was closed on SUNDAYS!!!! & dat stupid guy, when i told him i bought my baby at Sim Lim Square, he gave dat stupid face, like who-asked-you-to-buy-there-you-should-have-known-better. chao ah beng.


i will find a day to go to wheelock place again!! i do not care i will replace the earphones!!! & dat chao ah beng told me to register my baby 1st ok. who ask their stupid registration take so long at first!?!



dat indian guy at the apple support centre is wrong, no matter how nice he was!!! GRRRRR.


fuck u, apple.




damn pissed. stupid service centre. stupid chao ah beng. stupid registration. stupid everyting.





NVM, i will TOLERATE.




shit u.





"No guy is worth your tears, but when you find the one who is, he won't make you cry."

tomorrow i am going to replace my baby's earphones!!! wahahahaha. finally!


jaslin chew wanted to buy someting so i went wif her. i bought a Maybelline eyeliner! oso bought the stupid CME textbk which the stupid bk shop doesn't have cos it's bloody out of stock for so many bloody days already. i honestly tink the CME book is such a waste of money. last yr only use for a few times. waste paper oso.



went home & tested my eyeliner on my right eye. chew said i looked very different, like a goth, like the Mindfreak guy. wat's his name? criss angel izit? dun care. she oso said made my eye look bigger. & fiercer, she added.
which is good.


den later when we were bored i invented a stupid game & den she kept believing dat the results were true. which is totally not true ok. it was juz a coincidence. IT IS, OK, she is saying now. IT IS TRUE OK.


watever! it is so not true. like i said, it is juz a COINCIDENCE.


lalalala.



"I'm still holding on but I don't know if there is anything to hold onto."

oh MAN! i guess i really AM getting sicker by the second.


yesterday mother ang gave me a double dose of medicine, but it still doesn't help. i mean, it helped for ONE night, den today i still have a very super sore throat, a blocked nose, & to add on, blocked ears. as in, dere's air in ur ears & u can't hear properly. someting like dat lah.



but today i still went for the band performance for the sec 1 orientation. & i tell u, dat was the worst performance i've ever heard. to make it worse, si on (who was conducting) made it SO damn obvious dat we were playing badly cos after the song he made dat jiat lat face & rubbed his face wif his hands dat means "OMG we played so badly i am so embarrased wat now??"



i felt like killing him then.



but obviously i didn't.


i only saw a few CCAs. in the hall i saw the dance club, den on the 1st floor saw NCC wif their boring old routine, scattering leaves all over the floor & sort of ambushing ppl. saw red cross oso. can't believe i wanted to join red cross last time. luckily i didn't, cos sundaram is one of the teachers-in-charge. brrrrrr.



& today during english, judy tan said to write reflectionsfor hw! & she said, "some of u have blogs, rite? sometimes u blog abt how ur day was... so if u prefer to give me an online version also can, but u'll have to give me ur url."



YEAH, RITE! over my dead body.



i'd rather write until my hand hurts like hell than to give her my blog add.




"I don't have to talk to you to be happy, because every time I see you it makes my day complete."

i had a nice little walk home frm the interchange in the rain & now i am sicker. how wonderful.


but i do not care. I WILL HOLD OUT UNTIL THE PERFORMANCE TOMORROW. my nose is itching like hell; my throat is getting drier by the second. honey drink does not help. not when it's diluted honey, anyway.



today it was even colder than usual. i was ALMOST freezing, but not yet. yeah lah, exaggerating lah.


but still. it was damn cold. I was damn cold. unfortunately i do not have the habit of bringing a jacket to sch. so inconvenient.


my right calf muscle oso pain sia. dunno y. IF dis was the SARS period maybe i'd tink i have SARS. gasp!! dun tell me bird flu???? :x


the feeling of wanting to sneeze, but yet not being able to sneeze is terrible.



i called the Apple Software Support today to ask abt wat to do wif my baby, since i lost the warranty receipt & all. the indian man on the other line was very nice, although sometimes i couldn't hear wat he was saying wif his thick indian accent & fast speech.


LUCKILY I STILL CAN GET THE EARPHONES REPLACED!! thank goodness for the serial number. heh heh heh. my baby is warrantied (is dere even such a word??) to nov 2006! wahahahaha.


i bet tomorrow it'll be cold & rainy & i'll get more sick.



"We always love what we can't have, and don't take advantage of what's staring us in the face."

i tink i am gonna be sick soon. my throat is DAMN pain, my nose is DAMN itchy, & i am DAMN sleepy, thanx to my would-be cold.


today jaslin finally got angry. BUT it wasn't because i was irritating her. it was bcos of another thing... which i dunno & dun tink i can say bcos she'll kill me.


& i was late for the 1st time in 2006! this date must be remembered. bcos sch reopened not long ago den late already. thanx to my shoes. my left foot had a healing blister frm monday & den rested on tues. den after dat when i wore those shoes again, the blister opened up again, & the tip of my left sock was stained wif blood. :s so in the end couldn't walk properly, & as a result became late. poor limo oso was late bcos of me! :x



& during band i got irritated bcos

1) my throat was so damn pain & i couldn't play properly.
2) we were playing stupid boring Twist & Shout for the millionth time. (i honestly do not understand y ong likes dis stupid boring song so much. no taste sia)
3) si on already gave the signal to bring up our instruments but other ppl were still toking. besides, put 1 dunno how many kgs of horn on ur leg u noe very pain or not.dere r lines on my leg already.


so in the end, i felt irritation welling up.... & i snapped. at xerxes.


"BAND MAJOR, CAN U STOP TOKING OR NOT??"


oops.


he looked shocked dat i was kinda shouting at him.


later i felt kinda bad, but.. too bad. anyway he WAS toking so much. & i tot he was angry at me. i would be, if i were him.


den after dat i was sulking away by myself. den after like dunno how long (or short) later, he went, "araxes, wat happened? mood swing ah?"



AWWWWW. :)




to tink dat he is still not mad at me & still so... uh.. dunno wat's the word lah. but watever.



& nicholas came back to band! ong put him in the TUBA section!!!! can u believe it?!! frm percussion to tuba sia. but it's not like such a great loss. anwyay percussion is the worst section in the whole band. not only i say hor, other ppl oso got say lor.


& he was a fast learner. so fast can play the wole scale correctly. hidayat was busy praising himself for his "good teaching skills." firdaus said nicholas oso could read the tuba notes already! didn't noe he was such a fast learner leh. :p


den after learning frm hidayat nicholas came back in & so i went to tok to him abt his playing. it was a huge jump frm percussion to tuba ok. & dat idiotic zhijie said i was FLIRTING!!!!


like, WAT THE HELL?!?!


he said i always flirted wif the whole tuba section!! wah lan. who wanna flirt wif dem sia. siao leh he. & he kept saying & saying & saying. wu liao ah.





ok. i shall now have another list!


ARAXES' TOP 5 ENGLISH SENTIMENTAL LYRICS

5) "I wouldn't know how to say/how good it feels seeing you today/I see you've got your smile back/Now you say you're right on track but/you may never know why/once bitten twice is shy/if i'm proud perhaps i should explain/I couldn't bear to lose you again"--Leave Right Now~Will Young


4)"I'm sick and tired of this silly game/don't think that I'm the only one here to blame/it's not me who's been going round slamming doors/That's when you turned and said to me/I don't care babe who's right or wrong/I just don't love you no more"--Don't Love You No More(I'm Sorry)~Craig David

3) "I wish you'll look at me that way/your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine/telling me more than any words could say/but you don't even know I'm alive/baby to you all I am/is the invisible man"--Invisible Man~98 Degrees

2) "why do you come here/when you know I've got troubles enough/why do you call me/when you know i can't answer the phone/make me laugh when i don't want to/& make someone else some kinf of unknowing fool/you make me stay when i should not/are you so strong/or is it all the weakness in me/why do you come here/& pretend to be just passing by"--The Weakness In Me~Joan Armatrading

1)"why are we still friends/when everything says we should be more than we are/and tell me why/everytime I find someone that I like/we always end up just being friends"--Why Are We Still Friends~98 Degrees



"One day you'll love me as I have loved you, one day you'll cry for me as I have cried for you, one day you'll want me and I won't want you."

dun u love the beginning of a new yr? i mean, not long after starting sch, still got so many holidays some more. PLUS dere's chinese new yr, not particularly my FAVOURITE time of the yr, but i get new clothes & shoes AND money, so it's not like i dread it or wat.


today i spent the most of the day irritating jaslin. i dun understand WHY the hell she doesn't get angry wif me!!! no matter how i irritate her, or jab her elbow accidentally-on-purpose when she's writing, or tickle her, or pull her rubber band off her hair so she has to retie it, she STILL doesn't get angry. if i were her i'd get angry like damn fast already.


hmmmmm. maybe she has super patience or someting.


BUT today i could see she was getting fed up wif me! so dat's a good sign. it's weird when u irritate someone & dey dun get angry. if so, den wat's the point of irritation????


although she was getting fed up, she still didn't shout at me. :( i've nvr seen her really shout & scream & throw a tantrum. i noe i have. :D


i kept asking her whether she's angry, but she still kept saying no!!! will have to try harder next time. :p test her patience ma....



i tink my bottom teeth were abt to drop during band, cos i was pressing my mouthpiece too hard while playing pirates of the caribbean. after dat couldn't play blue ridge saga properly. sob~


i still have not found a use for my pocket pal.



"Nothing is more painful than realizing he meant everything to you and you meant nothing to him."

today we went to an old folk's home cos father ang was doing volunteer work. dere was a 91 yr old woman!! *gasp* & she was toking & toking away, even telling us abt the maria hertogh case.


den maxine ang said, "wah!! dat woman is a DECADE old leh!! can u believe it??"


& i was like, "a decade is 10 yrs, woman."


& den she said, "oh. a CENTURY old leh!!"


-_-"


ok. den we went to raffles city, & i bought a pocket pal frm the body shop!


The Body Shop and MTV Asia have partnered to raise awareness and stem the spread of HIV/AIDS by creating the Pocket Pal. This special edition 'Pocket Pal' coin purse was created by the designers at MTV. The fashionable coin purse adds a dash of color to any wardrobe and its eye-catching timeless design should be appealing to anybody! Handy in size and high in function, the 'Pocket Pal' coin purse has a divider cover at the base that allows you to keep a spare condom discreetly hidden (so you may always be prepared!).The 'Pocket Pal' coin purse is on sale in The Body Shop outlets across seven countries, including Hong Kong, Indonesia, New Zealand, Singapore, Taiwan, Thailand and West Malaysia.Proceeds from the 'Pocket Pal' campaign will be contributed towards the Staying Alive Foundation as well as local HIV/AIDS non-government organisations in each of the participating countries.


copied & pasted frm the www.staying-alive.org website. i have always wanted a pocket pal. NOT to put condoms, but the design is DAMN nice! besides, it is meaningful as well. now THIS is one organisation i support, man. although i have not found a use for it. hmm. can't put coins, although it's a coin purse, bcos

1) i already have a coin purse
2) even if i DO put coins in it, dey'll drop out.


i tried to put my baby in it, but it's too big!!!! grrr.



oh yeah, & my poor baby is sick!!! it's left earphone is spoilt, & it's not even half a yr yet. sobbbbb!!!! even worse, i have lost the warranty receipt!!! wtf sia.



now, i have 3 options:

1) bear wif it.
2) go to the shop & TRY to get it replaced.
3) buy a new pair of earphones.'



obviously option no. 2 is the best, but i bet the stupid ppl dere wun help me fix it unless i show them the stupid warranty receipt. it's not even a warranty CARD ok. i must've tot the warranty receipt was juz another useless receipt & threw it away. jeez.



how stupid can i be!?!!?!?!



i swear my IQ is dropping ever single day. like time my IQ was 120 can?!! now it's 115!


it is DAMN BLOODY FREAKING LOW.


luckily my EQ is 118, bcos ppl wif high EQ (not dat my EQ is so damn high, but at least it's higher than my IQ) generally are more successful than ppl wif high IQ.



i have decided to post a quote until i run out of quotes. got dem frm some website. today's food for thought is..


"a girl is much more than she seems, not a toy by any means. underneath the make-up and hair, there is a sign handle with care."

today was an even BETTER day! :D


in bio azri was being lame. he said DARREN joined campus superstar!!! yes, the DARREN KOH in MY class, 4E2, the one in NPCC!! but when i asked darren, he said he didn't! oh well. fact or fiction?


& den after sch papa oei made all the girls stay back to have dis weird talk about having--or doing--sex. i'm really not sure if it's HAVING or DOING, bcos u definitely HAVE sex, but then again, u DO sex at the same time. it's the same as whether u fill IN a form or fill OUT a form. english is weird, man.


but anyway, he beat around the bush as charmaine said, when we already KNEW wat he was talking abt. u noe, the usual stuff-- will regret, dun do anything wrong, wait until u're married, belong to someone & someone belongs to u.... blah blah.


i tink he should've told the boys, anyway. they are the ones dat may ruin someone else's life--or lives, for that matter.


i have realized dat zi liang looks funny when he's sick. i had a nice time teasing eusebius today. & making him all paiseh. :D

today i have realized the importance of looking on the bright side. and believing dat tomorrow will be a better day.


last nite, & in fact dis morning, i was wondering whether or not to go to sch, bcos my stupid hair fringe is so bloody short.


but den, i decided to go anyway.



i looked so ridiculously nerdy like idiots who get a haircut the day before sch reopens, when everybody noes dat u should get it cut at least 1 week before sch reopens, so u can get used to ur new hairstyle AND give it time to grow so it wouldn't look so freshly cut. but now i am getting used to it. it is kinda choppy-ish. juz have to wait for it to grow lor. who ask me to have stupid idiotically itchy hand nerves.


i seriously tink dis is karma. bcos on tues, BEFORE i cut my hair, i was laughing & suaning xavier's hair. :x sorry lah. i was also rather mean to him, though he was KIND OF trying to be nice. i was a mean person on tues, & now i am very guilty. i do not suppose xavier is gonna talk to me for a looong time. :(


beatrice gave me a pair of earrings today! butterfly earrings, to be exact. my favourite insect! wait. are butterflies insects?? i dunno. anyway. dey are oso purple! thanx!! :D



& bernard was nagging at me when i saw him today. cos i didn't go for band yesterday & left him, nazruddin & uthayan to fend for themselves. which is ridiculous, bcos u'd tink by now they'd have gotten use to blowing their horn, knowing the right pitch, the right rhythm, wif or without me.



oh welllllll. they will juz have to learn! :)

the 2nd day of sch is worse than the 1st day of sch. 2006 is definitely NOT my yr.


thanx to my stupid idiotically itchy hands, i was deemed "ugliest freak with ugliest hairstyle of the day."


yes, u read dat right. i definitely had the ugliest hairstyle of all of SGS. i was DAMNNNNNN embarrassed. i didn't even go for recess. cos my hair was too ugly to be seen.


dis is bcos yesterday, yvonne seah caught me on my way to morning assembly & said, "can u do someting abt ur hair pls."



so when i came home, i was too lazy to go to the hair salon, so i decided to cut it myself. the 1st time i cut it, it still looked ok. BUT the second time, my stupid idiotically itchy hands cut it the 2nd time, den it looked so stupid.


stupid jaslin chew was suaning at me the whole morning. hmpf! bad fren of mine.


i couldn't bear it any longer. wat i learnt today was, when u look ur ugliest, every person whom u wished everyday u saw but nvr ever saw, will suddenly appear in front of u. EVEN those u wished u would nvr ever see, would oso appear in front of u.


dis is exactly wat happened. i have the worst luck in the world. either right place, wrong time. or wrong place, right time.


but anyway. so i went to the hair salon to cut my hair again so it wouldn't look so freaking STUPID & DUMB like i was some idiot. now it is thin & short &.... better than today's. jaslin chew said i didn't look so stupid after the haircut.


it kinda looks like alyssa milano's. the short one. there. EXCEPT WHEN IT'S WET.


when it is wet, it is also disgusting.


--edited.

the 1st day of sch. the first sch day of THE YEAR.


& guess wat? dis is the only yr i DO NOT LIKE the 1st day of sch.


& i HATE MY TIMETABLE. it is the worst timetable i have ever seen in my 10 yrs of schooling.



it is a miracle i have lasted through 'til now.



oh yeah. & i saw someone i hoped i wouldn't see for a long time, after he & DAT THING wif my sister, i am now so paiseh whenever i see him. dunno how to react. should i be friendly juz bcos of someting over the hols, or should i act indifferent as usual? i hate situations like dat.



it is clear to see dat he & DAT THING wif my sister is... not so BIG like last time. now dey havw calmed down. which is good, bcos it is not making dis easier for me.



in a nutshell, today juz sucked. BIG TIME.

AHHH!!!!! I CANNOT BELIEVE THE HOLS ARE ENDING & SCH IS STARTING TOMORROW!!!!!~



all the hw i've done is only the 3 english bk reviews & e maths. i bet anselm paul is gonna say, "so, u tink u're so good now dat dun need to to hw already izit?"


dat's wat his LOOK on his face says, anyway. he is so gonna kill me. either dat, or he's gonna nag at the whole class: "THE O LEVELS ARE THIS YR!!! ARE U ALL STILL IN YOUR HOLIDAY MOOD??"


watever. i bet many ppl didn't even do ANY hw. so i'm considered quite gd already. :D


actually, i actually like the 1st day of sch, bcos everyting is NEW! but other than dat i dun like any day of sch, only the 1st & last days. i like the 1st day of sch oso cos can see many ppl dat i haven't seen for a long long loooong time, that is, 2 mths++! plus it's fun seeing where u'd sit & wif whom.



dat sounds corny, man. but it's true! :)



okies. this yr is THE YEAR! somehow it doesn't feel any diff. the only good ting abt THE YEAR is dat i'm FINALLY gonna graduate, not more seeing those ppl i dun wanna see anymore. isn't the feeling juz GREAT?