sad, depressed and alone

Today I told my frens dat i didn't like HIM anymore... but the fact is dat i still continued looking out for him n trying to spot him. I kept telling myself dat i was over him bcos i knew dat he would never notice me, much less know my name..... it was a excruciating day cos i had to act like i didn't care dat he was around when i was wif my frens... *sob*...haha...i noe i sound much more pitiful than i really am, but what to do? i was born to be a writer... haha... shall stop here... now in the sch library, many busybodies around...